Almost 3 a.m.

[earth2mars]

I should be sleeping considering how busy tomorrow (or should I say later) will be, but Aidan is crying in his crib and I can't quite tell if something is wrong and I need to go in there (and thereby possibly wake up everyone) or if I should wait it out to see if it gets any better

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[hiddeneloise]

Dearest! Hang in there! (I am sorry to keep this reply short -- I am running late for work), but I am composing a long and detailed reply to you to be sent later). I am very familiar with Autism. That is, I am familiar with one part of the specter. Because it's "Autism" is a broad term that covers so many things. When you get that re-evaluation, you will know better where you stand. I will tell you the whole story in the longer letter, but for now: my cousin (she is really a sister, we are very close, grew up together, etc.) raised an autistic son. Daniel was diagnosed when he was 5. Way late, but it was a long time ago, and no one yet knew or understood Autism properly. He is almost 21 now, and Lucy has a lifetime of resources to share. She is a wealth of energy, fight, knowledge, and precious contacts in that world, and I want to put you in touch with her, so you can ask questions, get support that you will need, and just generally not feel so overwhelmed. Anything you are going through she has been through. At the very least, she is a wealth of information.

I will talk to you soon, and please, please don't despair. As devastating as this sounds, it's not the end of everything. There are amazing things that are happening every day. Love you!!! Stay strong! Hugs!

[earth2mars]

Is Lucy your cousin who lost her husband about a year ago? If so, my gosh she's had a lot to deal with, huh? I'd love any connection you can foster. Someone to help me navigate this new world would be appreciated.

Thanks as always for your support.

[hiddeneloise]

Yes, Lucy is the one. Though David wasn't technically a husband. They weren't married. And it was 2 years (wow, I cannot believe it's been that long!). But yes, it's her. She is a rock. She's been through so much, she has boundless energy, and she is a very smart, tough, optimistic person.

I will talk to her and get back to you. The main point, dearest, is that you don't have to be or feel alone. There is a vast network of support out there. Hugs you and stay tuned.