Almost 3 a.m.
I should be sleeping considering how busy tomorrow (or should I say later) will be, but Aidan is crying in his crib and I can't quite tell if something is wrong and I need to go in there (and thereby possibly wake up everyone) or if I should wait it out to see if it gets any better.
Waiting it out is something we've been doing a lot lately.
As you know, my dad passed away early October and while that kept me away from LJ, it's what happened a month later that really devastated me.
You might remember ages ago, my post about Aidan needing therapy b/c he was delayed developmentally. Well, he took part in a medical diagnostic on November 4th and the behavioral pediatrician said he believes Aidan is presenting with signs of autism.
I cannot begin to explain what this diagnosis did to our lives. I thought I knew sadness when my father died, but this, this felt in many ways even more awful. I felt at that moment as if my son were dead.
Alexis, you were awesome in keeping my spirits up and I thank you again for your kindness.
I am terrified of what life will hold for us now. I know no one can know what the future holds for him/her, but this is frightening and so very depressing.
On May 7th, he'll be reevaluated again. His initial diagnosis was considered a soft diagnosis; with more therapy, there may be a change. But I have to tell you, ever since I heard those words, I can't help but see this disorder in just about everything he does.
I'm a little better now. The Prozac helps. :) Well, that and time and friends and hope and faith.
So, say a prayer I can handle what's coming and that I can be the mother these kids deserve.
Waiting it out is something we've been doing a lot lately.
As you know, my dad passed away early October and while that kept me away from LJ, it's what happened a month later that really devastated me.
You might remember ages ago, my post about Aidan needing therapy b/c he was delayed developmentally. Well, he took part in a medical diagnostic on November 4th and the behavioral pediatrician said he believes Aidan is presenting with signs of autism.
I cannot begin to explain what this diagnosis did to our lives. I thought I knew sadness when my father died, but this, this felt in many ways even more awful. I felt at that moment as if my son were dead.
Alexis, you were awesome in keeping my spirits up and I thank you again for your kindness.
I am terrified of what life will hold for us now. I know no one can know what the future holds for him/her, but this is frightening and so very depressing.
On May 7th, he'll be reevaluated again. His initial diagnosis was considered a soft diagnosis; with more therapy, there may be a change. But I have to tell you, ever since I heard those words, I can't help but see this disorder in just about everything he does.
I'm a little better now. The Prozac helps. :) Well, that and time and friends and hope and faith.
So, say a prayer I can handle what's coming and that I can be the mother these kids deserve.