Need to stop getting my hopes up, there is no hope.
I'd like to return to a life without emotion. Not possible? Damn.
It seems I have an in-grown toe nail on my big toe. So running isn't real possible. Have to bike. I wish I was in a bit better shape. Nothing can clear my mind and free my emotions like a good hard 5 mile run. I think it's what my life is missing most, aside from a stable love life.
Haven't been doing too well meeting new people through CL, can't message some new people on okcupid because I'm still registered as "Seeing Someone". I think this is changing soon, going to give it another day or two, maybe. We'll see. Hopeless, unrequited love, I think? Who knows.
I need people to talk to, and everyone seems to be disappearing.
I went to start watching Welcome to the NHK today. As I have gotten a bit more into watching some shows and the like since I did some recovery emotionally. Unfortunately the main character of the show is some guy that has not left a little condo in nearly 4 years, not once. He cannot even function outside and is deathly afraid of all social situations. And halfway through the first episode he meets a girl that comes to his door. Based on what I recall from an earlier summary of the show and the first bit of the first episode the story is going to be about a NEET (who I will identify with, though I'm not THAT bad) overcoming his social fears because of a girl. Considering that's the story of my life that is currently failing, I don't think I can stomach watching it just yet. I also hear it's sad, so I think he might eventually fail too, not sure. Last friend to recommend it to me loves the sad shows with depressing endings and I hate endings like that.
It seems I have an in-grown toe nail on my big toe. So running isn't real possible. Have to bike. I wish I was in a bit better shape. Nothing can clear my mind and free my emotions like a good hard 5 mile run. I think it's what my life is missing most, aside from a stable love life.
Haven't been doing too well meeting new people through CL, can't message some new people on okcupid because I'm still registered as "Seeing Someone". I think this is changing soon, going to give it another day or two, maybe. We'll see. Hopeless, unrequited love, I think? Who knows.
I need people to talk to, and everyone seems to be disappearing.
I went to start watching Welcome to the NHK today. As I have gotten a bit more into watching some shows and the like since I did some recovery emotionally. Unfortunately the main character of the show is some guy that has not left a little condo in nearly 4 years, not once. He cannot even function outside and is deathly afraid of all social situations. And halfway through the first episode he meets a girl that comes to his door. Based on what I recall from an earlier summary of the show and the first bit of the first episode the story is going to be about a NEET (who I will identify with, though I'm not THAT bad) overcoming his social fears because of a girl. Considering that's the story of my life that is currently failing, I don't think I can stomach watching it just yet. I also hear it's sad, so I think he might eventually fail too, not sure. Last friend to recommend it to me loves the sad shows with depressing endings and I hate endings like that.