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Now that I have officially settled down, everything is a bit better in life. I'm nowhere near relaxed/stress free, but I doubt I will be for quite some time, so I'm just going to get used to it.
I finally found a place for some local Ultimate Frisbee. Unfortunately it's a somewhat "srs" league and I'll need to purchase some cleats and probably get in better shape before I can join. But that's ok as they're at the end of their summer league and I couldn't join right away anyway. But I'm glad I've found a group to join up with and go out and play whenever I feel I'm ready to do so.
I was going to go out to the movies with a new friend today, but she cancelled as she is now going to make a trip to see some old friends. Oh well, maybe next week! I believe there will be some more movies out next week too.
My mother isn't happy with my wanting to do this little part time job. She says I need a job that gets me OUT of the house. I don't necessarily agree. I mean, sure, I do need to get out more, but I...don't like new people. I'm quite nervous at forging new friendships and the like. I can deal with the general public on the "I'm only going to see them once" basis perfectly fine, I've worked at movie theaters and done retail before, but I've never been that good with coworkers. Well, maybe I have been decently good, but I'm always second-guessing myself and wondering what they think of me (much like I did with DeAnna, lulz!) which always makes things awkward when they shouldn't be. All I really need in life is what I had in high school. A girl, a few friends and then nothing else matters. With a significant other and support structure you can do anything. I need to build that back up and life will be wonderful once again.
My plan currently is to hope I get this little part-time position and then I'll work to find the RIGHT job for me. One that either pays very nicely, is fun and/or has good advancement potential. For the last week I've been looking for just ANY job, but now I'm going to be selective. I was going to accept any job because I wanted to be able to start "providing" asap, but I don't believe I have any reason to need to provide "asap" anymore, so I'm going to slow down and look at my best options. Going and getting just the first job you can get is kinda silly, anyway. Especially with so many jobs in my area.
There are also some temp gigs on craigslist to check out. There's some work-at-home data entry/web research thing I'm hoping to get into doing. I figure between some gigs I can find and that part-time job I can start building up a bit of cash which will at least be an improvement over how I've spent the last few years of my life. I keep thinking I've wasted the last 5 years of my life, but a number of people (including the guy I interviewed with last night) said I'm fine, because they've felt the same thing and they're doing fine now.
The important thing is focusing on my worth and being able to get something that fits with me. With who I am, with what I'm good at and what I need.
Oh yeah, and finding a girl too.
I finally found a place for some local Ultimate Frisbee. Unfortunately it's a somewhat "srs" league and I'll need to purchase some cleats and probably get in better shape before I can join. But that's ok as they're at the end of their summer league and I couldn't join right away anyway. But I'm glad I've found a group to join up with and go out and play whenever I feel I'm ready to do so.
I was going to go out to the movies with a new friend today, but she cancelled as she is now going to make a trip to see some old friends. Oh well, maybe next week! I believe there will be some more movies out next week too.
My mother isn't happy with my wanting to do this little part time job. She says I need a job that gets me OUT of the house. I don't necessarily agree. I mean, sure, I do need to get out more, but I...don't like new people. I'm quite nervous at forging new friendships and the like. I can deal with the general public on the "I'm only going to see them once" basis perfectly fine, I've worked at movie theaters and done retail before, but I've never been that good with coworkers. Well, maybe I have been decently good, but I'm always second-guessing myself and wondering what they think of me (much like I did with DeAnna, lulz!) which always makes things awkward when they shouldn't be. All I really need in life is what I had in high school. A girl, a few friends and then nothing else matters. With a significant other and support structure you can do anything. I need to build that back up and life will be wonderful once again.
My plan currently is to hope I get this little part-time position and then I'll work to find the RIGHT job for me. One that either pays very nicely, is fun and/or has good advancement potential. For the last week I've been looking for just ANY job, but now I'm going to be selective. I was going to accept any job because I wanted to be able to start "providing" asap, but I don't believe I have any reason to need to provide "asap" anymore, so I'm going to slow down and look at my best options. Going and getting just the first job you can get is kinda silly, anyway. Especially with so many jobs in my area.
There are also some temp gigs on craigslist to check out. There's some work-at-home data entry/web research thing I'm hoping to get into doing. I figure between some gigs I can find and that part-time job I can start building up a bit of cash which will at least be an improvement over how I've spent the last few years of my life. I keep thinking I've wasted the last 5 years of my life, but a number of people (including the guy I interviewed with last night) said I'm fine, because they've felt the same thing and they're doing fine now.
The important thing is focusing on my worth and being able to get something that fits with me. With who I am, with what I'm good at and what I need.
Oh yeah, and finding a girl too.