internet was down
i really dont know why i update these things all the time. no one prolly reads them so i dont think it matters anyways. well havent been on for a while if anyone noticed because ive been busy and my internet was disconnected. school sucks but i guess that usually happens. then work has been ok i guess, im startin to get more hours now so thats good. the only problem is that it aint fun anymore. i used to look forward to goin to work everyday but not anymore. like now all the people i used to go up there jus to see, now dont even wanna see my ugly face.(which i cant blame them, niether do i) i think its cause im jus gettin farther away from everyone there. Like i hear all the people sayin " yea i did this, with these people, somewheree" and im jus thinkin that im jus sittin at home which is the one place i dont wanna be. yea every weekend i hang out at d's and dont get me wrong i have a ball. but it jus hurts so much to see all these friends turning more and more into acquaitences and its all my fault. ive tried to repair all the damages but i guess its beyond that now. like seriously i think my dad is using his cellphone now more than me and thats wierd. its jus no one wants to talk to me anymore. yea i know everyones busy or somethin but i dont know anymore. its jus hard to call people that u think jus plain out dont wanna talk to u. and whenever u call they jus ignore it. yea i know prolly no one is gonna read this , or someone is gonna jus get more pissed at me snce i cant say anythin right to them. but its pretty hard to go more downhill from where i am right now. well hit me up on the cell since no one does anymore.