back to school
hey everybody. yep its back to school time for me. i know it sucks but i knew it was comin up and at least i aint jus sittin at home on my ass anymore. i know everyone is tellin me its my senior year and its jus a cruise through but really i am scared out of mind. i got all these things goin on in my personal life, and i wont be able to concentrate. then so many of my friends arent gonna be there this year wit me cause they graduated and i wont be hangin out wit them that much probably. its already started even before school, i hardly talk to them that much anymore and its tearin me up and i dont know what i have done or what to do now. work has sucked since i havent been gettin any hours so i hope i can get more now, or i really need a new job. classes are ok i guess, i got study hall 1st, but i would rather have it 4th so i can get out early so i gotta look into that. no classes wit anyone i know pretty much so w/e. then all these senior things and events i dont know about. im not much of that kind of person. gotta take sat's and i dot even know what ot do bout college. yea i want to go but i dont know if i will. i mean its like so much that i goota do to get in and i dont know any of it. then prom i prolly wont be goin to. like seriously who would go with me. story of my life right there. im startin to get used to the fact of bein alone for my life. yea its depressin but u gotta look at the brighter side of it. ill let u know whenever i find that side. its jus everything lately is stressful and i aint gor no one to talk to bout it, so many people say they are there for me but when it comes to then they either dont have time, get mad at me, or i jus cant even get in touch with them. latley i havent been able to sleep at night time. jus layin there in bed lookin u wit so many thoughts goin through my head and nothin to do with any of them. so everynight i jus lay there for at least 2 maybe 3 hours. if i try to call someone to talk to they dont pick u or they jus reject it. i leave a message and no one ever callss back.well now im gonna go lay down i guess. leave me some.