no answer to this one ever.
maybe it is time.
someone said : "sherye is too controversial to be a significant source of strength." this used to be too. i barely come up on the radar for anymore.
being away from rick for more then a month doesn't seem to have bothered him too much, from here i can not tell. he may want to argue otherwise, but it still hurts.
he said he'd come april 1st, our one year anniversary. but then.... he ust didn't. and hasnt make any plans to any time soon,
that makes me think a lot of things.
and yes,
i am a stupid girl.
also, bob seger was not singing to the other person in "the famous final scene," he was singing to me and my side,
duh.
i am the stupid one.
my locus of contol is quickly moving towards the external. because, once again, i am stupid.
i have soo many return to do. especially ikea. that makes me very upset, i knew what those things were supposed to be for.
i'm not sure if its the meds that make me want to kill myself
i dont want to to do it, i am jus tso depressed i wish i were dead just to get it all over with.
dont bother commenting and trying to cheer me u. i promise i will continue to be here.
who knows, it'll pass.
as everyone thing does..
i regret a lot of things in m life; i'm not one who says they proudly do not.
maybe monday is not too soon to go back to the dr.
ive just about put myself to sleep.
i dont know what any f the litle pills do anymore.
sometimes i sleep.
one thing that i have been doing pretty well, that according to everyone else helps sooo much, is keeping myself busy.
the day go by faster now, the nights do not.
someone said : "sherye is too controversial to be a significant source of strength." this used to be too. i barely come up on the radar for anymore.
being away from rick for more then a month doesn't seem to have bothered him too much, from here i can not tell. he may want to argue otherwise, but it still hurts.
he said he'd come april 1st, our one year anniversary. but then.... he ust didn't. and hasnt make any plans to any time soon,
that makes me think a lot of things.
and yes,
i am a stupid girl.
also, bob seger was not singing to the other person in "the famous final scene," he was singing to me and my side,
duh.
i am the stupid one.
my locus of contol is quickly moving towards the external. because, once again, i am stupid.
i have soo many return to do. especially ikea. that makes me very upset, i knew what those things were supposed to be for.
i'm not sure if its the meds that make me want to kill myself
i dont want to to do it, i am jus tso depressed i wish i were dead just to get it all over with.
dont bother commenting and trying to cheer me u. i promise i will continue to be here.
who knows, it'll pass.
as everyone thing does..
i regret a lot of things in m life; i'm not one who says they proudly do not.
maybe monday is not too soon to go back to the dr.
ive just about put myself to sleep.
i dont know what any f the litle pills do anymore.
sometimes i sleep.
one thing that i have been doing pretty well, that according to everyone else helps sooo much, is keeping myself busy.
the day go by faster now, the nights do not.