Sixth Thoughts
As a child you happily await the day when you become an adult. That day when you can stay up as late as you want, do as you want, and eat as much ice cream for dinner as you want. Personally, I thought it would happen all in one day. I would arise from a peaceful slumber with an urge to put on a business suit and go change the world. We can put on the business suit together SB.. Thanks
I have come to realize though as I have progressed through my years, that changes are not sudden. They do not happen over night. They sneak up on you like a stealth ninja and attack you. You barely have time to comprehend that a war is being raged on you until you are laying in a pool of your own blood and you can not stop the actions of the ninja, only lay and reflect. Though, I suppose I really shouldn't relate growing older to a ninja attack.
Today as I was walking home from visiting with a few friends while they shopped for items to fill their rooms, I took a moment to realize that we are all taking steps toward the next chapters in our lives. Moving out, going to school, taking jobs seriously so you can keep up with your bills, and falling in love. The changes in my opinion were slow and creeping.
At first, it seemed like no one had a care in the world. Yes, we would go to work, but then we would come home and do absolutely nothing for hours. Just enjoying each others company and passing the time until it was time for work again. But then more responsibilities began to arise.
The attack has already happened. I can only sit back and reflect. On the days when I could stay up all night. I dont have a car and i have to walking late at night to a friend's house. helping friends carry a stop sign through busy intersections. Said by a wise man "SB". Sorry for not giving credit earlier. As the sun rises, finally deciding that it is time to return home to go to sleep. Being trapped in a summer that lasted much longer then one season and loving every moment of it.
But now we are all stuck on our schedules. Said by Kim. With other things to do. Other responsibilities. Other things and people to care about. It's hard to look back on those days of absolute freedom and not miss them. But what helps is to look forward to bigger and better things. To eventually graduating college. To be stuck in a nine to five job, but actually loving every moment of it. To coming home to a family. To your home. It's all yours. So, I guess you could consider it freedom. Just a very structured freedom.
Through my ages I did not look forward to growing older. I was scared. Almost to death, I guess you could say. I did not want to grow up. But now I am loving the idea of it and enjoying the slow journey to that point when I'll look back and reflect on this point of my life. Finding myself hilarious for thinking I was so mature and grown up at the tender age of 15.
I want to graduate. I want to get a job I enjoy. I want to get married and have a family. I want a house. I may even drive a mini-van (Maybe I could get flames detailed onto it?). I no longer fear being shoved into these roles and being trapped in them. I actually look forward to them.
I was never very good with change. But, now i am just going to let it happen. I am going to go with the flow.
Love,
EA
I have come to realize though as I have progressed through my years, that changes are not sudden. They do not happen over night. They sneak up on you like a stealth ninja and attack you. You barely have time to comprehend that a war is being raged on you until you are laying in a pool of your own blood and you can not stop the actions of the ninja, only lay and reflect. Though, I suppose I really shouldn't relate growing older to a ninja attack.
Today as I was walking home from visiting with a few friends while they shopped for items to fill their rooms, I took a moment to realize that we are all taking steps toward the next chapters in our lives. Moving out, going to school, taking jobs seriously so you can keep up with your bills, and falling in love. The changes in my opinion were slow and creeping.
At first, it seemed like no one had a care in the world. Yes, we would go to work, but then we would come home and do absolutely nothing for hours. Just enjoying each others company and passing the time until it was time for work again. But then more responsibilities began to arise.
The attack has already happened. I can only sit back and reflect. On the days when I could stay up all night. I dont have a car and i have to walking late at night to a friend's house. helping friends carry a stop sign through busy intersections. Said by a wise man "SB". Sorry for not giving credit earlier. As the sun rises, finally deciding that it is time to return home to go to sleep. Being trapped in a summer that lasted much longer then one season and loving every moment of it.
But now we are all stuck on our schedules. Said by Kim. With other things to do. Other responsibilities. Other things and people to care about. It's hard to look back on those days of absolute freedom and not miss them. But what helps is to look forward to bigger and better things. To eventually graduating college. To be stuck in a nine to five job, but actually loving every moment of it. To coming home to a family. To your home. It's all yours. So, I guess you could consider it freedom. Just a very structured freedom.
Through my ages I did not look forward to growing older. I was scared. Almost to death, I guess you could say. I did not want to grow up. But now I am loving the idea of it and enjoying the slow journey to that point when I'll look back and reflect on this point of my life. Finding myself hilarious for thinking I was so mature and grown up at the tender age of 15.
I want to graduate. I want to get a job I enjoy. I want to get married and have a family. I want a house. I may even drive a mini-van (Maybe I could get flames detailed onto it?). I no longer fear being shoved into these roles and being trapped in them. I actually look forward to them.
I was never very good with change. But, now i am just going to let it happen. I am going to go with the flow.
Love,
EA