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What is the problem?
I hope someone asks me that today.
I HOPE SOME ONE ASKS ME WHAT EXACTLY IS MY PROBLEM?
Because ill tell you my problem, ill gladly tell you. Im sick of this. Im sick of te way that i see people living thier lives. Like A bunch of fucking man made superficaial fucks. Thats how i see people living today. I dont even know how to say it with out swearing ever 5 seconds , sounding like a bitch, and you thinking that im just another fuking rebellious idiot who hasent learned her place yet. Lets be honest thats what your thinking and anyone who i said this true would say "youll grow up and grow out of it". Yes, theyll say that like im a fucking child. Like im 3 years old. Ill grow out of it? My life isnt a phase, the way i wanna be, what i want to become, thats not a phase. Im not gowing to grow up and grow out of what i want to be. my life, my desicions, the way i live, what i want to become thats not a phase it a passion, its fate, its my life. What other people dont get is that i enjoy what i do, i enjoy who i am, i enjoy my life so why cant you? People these fine days, people back then, people in the future are fucked. YOUR FUCKED......unless you do what you want to do. I asked my dad the other day if he alwasy wanted to become an appraiser. If that waas what he thought about doing in high school. AND DO YOU KNOW WHAT HE SAID?? no you dont, but let me tell you. he said to me "god no, i wanted to be an astrologer. I wanted to study the stars and space." and i asked him why he didnt, why did he become who he longed to become? he said "your mother got pregnant right out of high school and i had to find a job. I didnt even get to go to college." Im ashamed. I am very ashamed to tell you that story about my fatherr.Im not ashamed of him not going to college im not ashamed that he got my mother pregnant, im ashamed that he makes up excusues. Thats what it is a fucking excuse. He now works at a desk, he carries a brief case, he hates his fucking job and its all because of his own actions. He could have put him self through college...maybe not right when my mother was pregnant maybe not for a few years after but he chose to deny himself his dream. That makes me ashamed. I bet if you read this youll probably think im very ignorant, but thats fine, think what you wantto you could think i have a penis for all i care. But i know that im not. You cannot be ignorant about your own oppinions. Because they are my oppinions, not yours, therefore i can say whatever i want to. I want to write. I want to be an author, a journalist, an editor. I want to write from now untill the rest of my life. Ialeady do. To be honest id rather sit in my bed and write than go to the beach or go to a party. It calms me, gives me a sense of good, it makes me happy. AND THATS A WONDERFUL THING, because at 16 i found something that i want to do for the rest of my life. But writing dosent just sprout out of my asss i get it from life expiriences. I take a situation that happeneed in my life and make it into a story. But i cant write and feel the way i feel when i write if i cant expirience things. Mom and dad i dont want to be like you. President bush i dont want to be like you. Gahndi i dont want to be like you. GOD I DONT WANT TO BE LIKE YOU. i want to be me. So please stop telling me i can be anything i want to be if i set my mind to it and then deny me that right to be what i want. Thats ignorant. I dont want to be like that i dotn want to live like that so please im not getting anywhere with people up my ass telling me what to do and telling me how to live. Following your dreams dosent work like that, its not as easy as getting good grades and going to college, its much more. It takes expirience and time.
I hope someone asks me that today.
I HOPE SOME ONE ASKS ME WHAT EXACTLY IS MY PROBLEM?
Because ill tell you my problem, ill gladly tell you. Im sick of this. Im sick of te way that i see people living thier lives. Like A bunch of fucking man made superficaial fucks. Thats how i see people living today. I dont even know how to say it with out swearing ever 5 seconds , sounding like a bitch, and you thinking that im just another fuking rebellious idiot who hasent learned her place yet. Lets be honest thats what your thinking and anyone who i said this true would say "youll grow up and grow out of it". Yes, theyll say that like im a fucking child. Like im 3 years old. Ill grow out of it? My life isnt a phase, the way i wanna be, what i want to become, thats not a phase. Im not gowing to grow up and grow out of what i want to be. my life, my desicions, the way i live, what i want to become thats not a phase it a passion, its fate, its my life. What other people dont get is that i enjoy what i do, i enjoy who i am, i enjoy my life so why cant you? People these fine days, people back then, people in the future are fucked. YOUR FUCKED......unless you do what you want to do. I asked my dad the other day if he alwasy wanted to become an appraiser. If that waas what he thought about doing in high school. AND DO YOU KNOW WHAT HE SAID?? no you dont, but let me tell you. he said to me "god no, i wanted to be an astrologer. I wanted to study the stars and space." and i asked him why he didnt, why did he become who he longed to become? he said "your mother got pregnant right out of high school and i had to find a job. I didnt even get to go to college." Im ashamed. I am very ashamed to tell you that story about my fatherr.Im not ashamed of him not going to college im not ashamed that he got my mother pregnant, im ashamed that he makes up excusues. Thats what it is a fucking excuse. He now works at a desk, he carries a brief case, he hates his fucking job and its all because of his own actions. He could have put him self through college...maybe not right when my mother was pregnant maybe not for a few years after but he chose to deny himself his dream. That makes me ashamed. I bet if you read this youll probably think im very ignorant, but thats fine, think what you wantto you could think i have a penis for all i care. But i know that im not. You cannot be ignorant about your own oppinions. Because they are my oppinions, not yours, therefore i can say whatever i want to. I want to write. I want to be an author, a journalist, an editor. I want to write from now untill the rest of my life. Ialeady do. To be honest id rather sit in my bed and write than go to the beach or go to a party. It calms me, gives me a sense of good, it makes me happy. AND THATS A WONDERFUL THING, because at 16 i found something that i want to do for the rest of my life. But writing dosent just sprout out of my asss i get it from life expiriences. I take a situation that happeneed in my life and make it into a story. But i cant write and feel the way i feel when i write if i cant expirience things. Mom and dad i dont want to be like you. President bush i dont want to be like you. Gahndi i dont want to be like you. GOD I DONT WANT TO BE LIKE YOU. i want to be me. So please stop telling me i can be anything i want to be if i set my mind to it and then deny me that right to be what i want. Thats ignorant. I dont want to be like that i dotn want to live like that so please im not getting anywhere with people up my ass telling me what to do and telling me how to live. Following your dreams dosent work like that, its not as easy as getting good grades and going to college, its much more. It takes expirience and time.