As I was reading this, memories flooded back. This is why I love livejournal; it really does make you go back. I am glad you remembered you had this thing, and your theramutic thoughts actually made sense and meant something to me. I agree with your outake on life.
"it's as if we just have feelings to keep ourselves distracted from the fact that none of it matters i really think i'm beginning to come to terms with that though and i don't say it in a depressing nihlistic way it just is what it is and i'm at a point in my life where i have discovered that i'm not going to be famous i'm not going to change the world and the things that happen in my life are simply what happens in everyones lives it's sort of a relief to have that kind of self-induced pressure off your shoulders to know that drama is entertaining, life is fun, and being self-absorbed is gloriously satisfactory but when all is said and done, your life was yours and you never needed to live it for anyone but yourself because when it's over it's over and people forget and the world keeps moving when you're not in it anymore"
I really love what you said there because it's so true. I try to communicate this to people sometimes, but they tell me things like,"you really can make a difference" and "how do you know what will happen in the future" what cheese balls right? lol It felt good to know that someone understands whats going on in my head and is just trying to live the best life they can, cause hey we only get one right?
Totally dug the HP reference....
And I am very happy for you erin. I'm sure its the best feeling in the world to know there's someone out there who loves you unconditionally and you can be completely content with as is.
I miss you. I hope you are coming back to Southlake for summer cause I'd really like to spend some time with you. It seems like life is going pretty great for you, and you deserve it.
"it's as if we just have feelings to keep ourselves distracted from the fact that none of it matters
i really think i'm beginning to come to terms with that though
and i don't say it in a depressing nihlistic way
it just is what it is
and i'm at a point in my life where i have discovered that i'm not going to be famous
i'm not going to change the world
and the things that happen in my life are simply what happens in everyones lives
it's sort of a relief to have that kind of self-induced pressure off your shoulders
to know that drama is entertaining, life is fun, and being self-absorbed is gloriously satisfactory
but when all is said and done, your life was yours and you never needed to live it for anyone but yourself
because when it's over it's over and people forget and the world keeps moving when you're not in it anymore"
I really love what you said there because it's so true. I try to communicate this to people sometimes, but they tell me things like,"you really can make a difference" and "how do you know what will happen in the future" what cheese balls right? lol
It felt good to know that someone understands whats going on in my head and is just trying to live the best life they can, cause hey we only get one right?
Totally dug the HP reference....
And I am very happy for you erin. I'm sure its the best feeling in the world to know there's someone out there who loves you unconditionally and you can be completely content with as is.
I miss you. I hope you are coming back to Southlake for summer cause I'd really like to spend some time with you. It seems like life is going pretty great for you, and you deserve it.
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