Sleeplessness
Okay, so I owe you guys an update to explain what has been up with me. Shortly before break I started having trouble falling asleep, but I was not up half the night, so I did not think much of it and figure I would readjust on my own within some time. Well, over break and since break it has only gotten worse and I have been up until 2:30 or 3am every night this week; for some people this may be normal, but it is not for me. Somehow I have been able to still get up in time for classes and things and it is getting to where the lack of sleep is not affecting me during the day, as in I am not dragging myself around campus dead tired. Monday was the only day that I was not really functioning due to tiredness during the day, but that was because it was the first morning I had to be up and did not have the option of sleeping in; however, by the middle of the afternoon I suddenly was awake. I have gotten annoyed with not being able to fall asleep, especially since I have not figure out what has me so restless that I am having trouble falling asleep. To try and get myself back on a regular sleep schedule I have not been allowing me to take naps, not like I would be able to fall asleep for one anyways, and a few nights I have read a textbook to get me sleepy enough that I could just doze off, but I am still having trouble going to sleep. Since I am unable to fall asleep, I have been using the time productively most nights and work on homework or studied. I originally thought it was just a problem for one night, right now I am not sure when I am going to get back on schedule.
The only other thing that I have to mention that has been bothering me lately is that I am starting to get stressed; between a group project, thinking about the semester ending (honors project & upcoming exams) and the tournament that I will running this weekend I broke down for a little while last night. For the most part classes are not stressing me out, the group project was getting to me, but I finished that last night while I could not sleep. The tournament is really frustrating me though which caused me lose my grip and had to call my mom to calm me down because I knew she would understand what I was talking about. The tournament having so few responses has been causing problems and it does not help that I do not really get along with my adult advisor. With how things are going I am considering moving up to bowling in the adults next year and then I cannot be involved in the organization anymore. Basically the only thing that has me still bowling in youth leagues is my dedication and involvement in the youth leaders. Well, enough about that because no one who reads my journal even understands what I was just talking about.
Okay, the happier moments of things that have happened since Thanksgiving.
~ Tuesday I spent two hours cleaning the kitchen because I couldn't take it any longer. I was just going to do the dishes, but I did not stop there and just kept going. This is not exactly a happy moment, even though my friends know how much I like to clean. I am really amazed I let the kitchen get that bad, which is funny because some people would have still considered it clean. I am happy about me cleaning the kitchen because it being clean makes me happy; I was avoiding it because it bothered me that it was dirty and it is so nice to look at it now that is clean (I think this is a reason why I enjoy cleaning).
~ Last night Jen and I cooked a mexican themed dinner and invited some friends over; or as Jen put it we played hostesses. I made Taco salad to go with the Chicken Quesdillas she made, there was also chips and salsa (homemade salsa). Oh my the food was so good and we all left stuffed. I was amazed that I had leftover Taco salad.
~ Tonight just before Jen and I left for her soccer game Joe made a rare appearance online. We were so excited that we caught him online, even if it was for only a few minutes. We exchanged the how are ya's and I told him a few things, but what really hit me was when we said our byes and miss ya's, he called me sis. Of all the times that Jen and I have referred to him being like our big brother he never call us his sisters until recently and tonight was the first time he said it to me. When I read "miss u 2 sis" I was so touched that I teared up a bit, it is great to have friends that I am so close with. (Only 32 more days until Joe makes his way back to Michigan!!!)
~ Tomorrow afternoon/early evening Jamie will be visiting Eastern. It will be so great to see her again being as I have not seen her since her birthday party. We are so excited! She is also going to be coming back to Eastern next year.
The only other thing that I have to mention that has been bothering me lately is that I am starting to get stressed; between a group project, thinking about the semester ending (honors project & upcoming exams) and the tournament that I will running this weekend I broke down for a little while last night. For the most part classes are not stressing me out, the group project was getting to me, but I finished that last night while I could not sleep. The tournament is really frustrating me though which caused me lose my grip and had to call my mom to calm me down because I knew she would understand what I was talking about. The tournament having so few responses has been causing problems and it does not help that I do not really get along with my adult advisor. With how things are going I am considering moving up to bowling in the adults next year and then I cannot be involved in the organization anymore. Basically the only thing that has me still bowling in youth leagues is my dedication and involvement in the youth leaders. Well, enough about that because no one who reads my journal even understands what I was just talking about.
Okay, the happier moments of things that have happened since Thanksgiving.
~ Tuesday I spent two hours cleaning the kitchen because I couldn't take it any longer. I was just going to do the dishes, but I did not stop there and just kept going. This is not exactly a happy moment, even though my friends know how much I like to clean. I am really amazed I let the kitchen get that bad, which is funny because some people would have still considered it clean. I am happy about me cleaning the kitchen because it being clean makes me happy; I was avoiding it because it bothered me that it was dirty and it is so nice to look at it now that is clean (I think this is a reason why I enjoy cleaning).
~ Last night Jen and I cooked a mexican themed dinner and invited some friends over; or as Jen put it we played hostesses. I made Taco salad to go with the Chicken Quesdillas she made, there was also chips and salsa (homemade salsa). Oh my the food was so good and we all left stuffed. I was amazed that I had leftover Taco salad.
~ Tonight just before Jen and I left for her soccer game Joe made a rare appearance online. We were so excited that we caught him online, even if it was for only a few minutes. We exchanged the how are ya's and I told him a few things, but what really hit me was when we said our byes and miss ya's, he called me sis. Of all the times that Jen and I have referred to him being like our big brother he never call us his sisters until recently and tonight was the first time he said it to me. When I read "miss u 2 sis" I was so touched that I teared up a bit, it is great to have friends that I am so close with. (Only 32 more days until Joe makes his way back to Michigan!!!)
~ Tomorrow afternoon/early evening Jamie will be visiting Eastern. It will be so great to see her again being as I have not seen her since her birthday party. We are so excited! She is also going to be coming back to Eastern next year.