fuck you
you will never read this. but i wish you would. because i don't have the guts to say it to your face. i made one mistake. one fucking mistake. and i'm losing everything because of it. you rant and go on about how "in the real business world" they wouldn't give me a second chance, you glorifiy yourself for being so tolerant as to let me try again. LOOK AROUND. you're NOT giving me a second chance. you're putting me in a fucking cage and letting me rot there. you say go out and meet people. i have friends. you're taking them away. you say they're not good enough. you're treating me like a fucking 10 year old. i'm not a fucking child any more. you can not choose my friends, you can not make my choices for me. why don't you udnerstand that. do you not realize how fucking unhappy i am? do you not realize that i am ready to leave EVERYTHIGN i know and am use to for the chance to be happy? i'm stuck in a prison, unable to get out. compleatly voiceless and clawless. and my warden is blind. i don't know what to do anymore. i used to be so proud of who i was, of being who i am. and now. i wish so hard i was someone else. i've come so close to doing something drastic these past couple of weeks. if i lose anymore there will be nothing to stop me.