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ive come to the conclusion that YES i am retarted. its rediculous, its like im blinded or something
i know "the game" in and out, i know the lines and the excuses, ive fuckin used them ALL before, but for some reason im falling for it, and im beleiving the excuses and makin excuses for him myself! YUCK!
this is sooooo not me and its soo not normal, and im sick of everyone being like "Rochelle, come on now, you of all people should know better"...and i do, im just not fucking applying it. ive seen/heard the fucking lies and i get sooo pissed but its like as soon as i hear his voice everythings ok. and i HATE being lied to, just tell me the fucking truth, idc what it is, just dont lie, omgggggg!
talked to my big bro today and told him the story, so then he asks half the fucking navy about it, and they all agree im stupid and i should know better!
i need to stop thinking about it and analyzing the situation. i need to listen to people when they tell me things. i need to not care. i need someone to sit there and take my phone away when i go to call him, and most of all i need someone to make sure i dont get pissed when im drunk and do something that'll i regret later...im fucking almost 19 and i need a god damn babysitter WTF!
but seriously, i dont know how someone can be so fucking bi-polar, i swear i never know what personality im dealing with, sometimes i think im fuckin crazy, but then i realize NOPE its just him
i really am just attracted to the wrong guys. but its funny cuz its very unusual for me to be like this with a guy. normally guys just come and go outta my life and its easy for me to be a complete bitch to them, but when i find one i like, i dont know how to act, and my mind gets clouded by their gorgeous eyes, cute smile, and adorable fucking lines they use. FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!
im soooo done, well i need to be atleast, but the way things are going, im gonna look at it as just getting started!
i love my brother, my best friends, and my roomies for listening to me bitch n moan every fucking day lol
k thats all i think...wish me luck!
i know "the game" in and out, i know the lines and the excuses, ive fuckin used them ALL before, but for some reason im falling for it, and im beleiving the excuses and makin excuses for him myself! YUCK!
this is sooooo not me and its soo not normal, and im sick of everyone being like "Rochelle, come on now, you of all people should know better"...and i do, im just not fucking applying it. ive seen/heard the fucking lies and i get sooo pissed but its like as soon as i hear his voice everythings ok. and i HATE being lied to, just tell me the fucking truth, idc what it is, just dont lie, omgggggg!
talked to my big bro today and told him the story, so then he asks half the fucking navy about it, and they all agree im stupid and i should know better!
i need to stop thinking about it and analyzing the situation. i need to listen to people when they tell me things. i need to not care. i need someone to sit there and take my phone away when i go to call him, and most of all i need someone to make sure i dont get pissed when im drunk and do something that'll i regret later...im fucking almost 19 and i need a god damn babysitter WTF!
but seriously, i dont know how someone can be so fucking bi-polar, i swear i never know what personality im dealing with, sometimes i think im fuckin crazy, but then i realize NOPE its just him
i really am just attracted to the wrong guys. but its funny cuz its very unusual for me to be like this with a guy. normally guys just come and go outta my life and its easy for me to be a complete bitch to them, but when i find one i like, i dont know how to act, and my mind gets clouded by their gorgeous eyes, cute smile, and adorable fucking lines they use. FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!
im soooo done, well i need to be atleast, but the way things are going, im gonna look at it as just getting started!
i love my brother, my best friends, and my roomies for listening to me bitch n moan every fucking day lol
k thats all i think...wish me luck!