Bring it to the surface
I seriously believe I'm missing some big message. My subconscious is desperately trying to tell me something, but I'm not recieving it. I had this wild, hectic dream last night. I can't really encapsulate it, but basically I was in this building and it's foundation was breaking. The building was on the brink of collapsing yet it didn't. It was just seriously flawed. And during the commotion of the breaking of the building I met this guy. We hit it off instantly. For the moments I was talking to him I almost forgot this building could cave in on us. And a lot of other stuff was going on. Like I said the dream was wild and chaotic, but upstairs was my apartment (which actually looked like my apartment. I don't think I've ever dreamed of my apartment actually looking how it really looks before. the bottom part of the building looked more like an auditorium) and because the building was breaking rats could get it and they were all over my apartment. A few attacked me. And there was this girl in the dream (in the auditorium part when I realized the building was breaking). She either was or reminded me of a girl named Simone I knew in elementary school. Now I had a dream with another girl from elementary before. Her name was Lamonica. I met both around the 2nd or 3rd grades. But the thing is neither of them were closeto me. I just knew them 'cause we were in the same class. So I figure my dreams/subconscious is trying to make me remeber something that happened in the 3rd grade.
Ok here's the background. I was thin during my early years. In fact, I was such a picky eater that my mother would occasionally take me to the doctor asking them why I wouldn't eat. I don't remember what happened but sometime between the 3rd and 4th grades I gained a LOT of weight. And ever since then I've had weight issues. Whatever happened then must have been so subtle that I missed it. So I have no idea exactly why I have problems with food and weight. I used to always ignore the idea that the food might be something deeper. I just thought I liked to eat 'cause food tasted good and that was that. Now I'm thinking it's something more.
I'm convinced something happened, maybe during that summer between school semesters, but I have no idea what. But I feel my dreams are trying to tell me. The whole broken foundation thing... A broken foundation which let an infestation in... There's a lot of stuff there, but I want to remember exactly what happened back then to change me. My dreams are telling me everything but that. But I'm not too worried. I'm assuming it'll come to me and probably soon. My eating habits seem to be going back to how they were before. A lot of the stuff that used to seem good turns me off.
Ok here's the background. I was thin during my early years. In fact, I was such a picky eater that my mother would occasionally take me to the doctor asking them why I wouldn't eat. I don't remember what happened but sometime between the 3rd and 4th grades I gained a LOT of weight. And ever since then I've had weight issues. Whatever happened then must have been so subtle that I missed it. So I have no idea exactly why I have problems with food and weight. I used to always ignore the idea that the food might be something deeper. I just thought I liked to eat 'cause food tasted good and that was that. Now I'm thinking it's something more.
I'm convinced something happened, maybe during that summer between school semesters, but I have no idea what. But I feel my dreams are trying to tell me. The whole broken foundation thing... A broken foundation which let an infestation in... There's a lot of stuff there, but I want to remember exactly what happened back then to change me. My dreams are telling me everything but that. But I'm not too worried. I'm assuming it'll come to me and probably soon. My eating habits seem to be going back to how they were before. A lot of the stuff that used to seem good turns me off.