push, drown (02/03)

[dystopialights]

push, drown
minsu, jaesu (eventual jaeminsu); pg-13
romance/drama
3,453 words
because of/blamed on/for itsplashes ♥
[part one]

Sometimes, it can’t be helped. Sometimes, fine lines are meant to be crossed.

Comments

[oldwillow_brook]

There's just so much here. It's so thick, full of unfinished sentences and uncertain desires and just so much of everything that its like where do you start from to begin to unravel?

Junsu is oblivious in the sense that he simply doesn't want to know. Not in the sense he doesn't notice. He sees things, feels them, responses and actions but refuses to acknowledge what that might be. But he can't control himself when he's around Changmin and Jaejoong makes him unsure of things.

At first when Junsu sees Changmin and Jaejoong kissing, I thought he was heartbroken. I thought he didn't want to know because it hurt to see Changmin that way with Jaejoong (or the other way around). But I realized after some time that its a little bit of that and a little bit of hatred towards himself and self denial. He doesn't want to feel the hurt and anger and other emotions he feels over seeing that. He just doesn't want any of it.

And Changmin is very confusing. He seemingly acts like he wants Junsu, that he does like him (which is another thing Junsu is refusing to see (even if he sees it)) and the next moment its as if the idea of having Jaejoong with Junsu angers him. When he stares at Jaejoong at Kohaku, he understands what Jaejoong has done and the confusing part is; is he angry because it wasn't himself instead of Jaejoong? or is he angry because he doesn't want Jaejoong to go any where else? But then I can't help but feel that he's angry that Jaejoong would step that way in the first place. I'm not sure if my thoughts are making sense. It's so thick with things from each perspective.

Personally one of my favourite scenes in this chapter is when Jaejoong is on the roof. The epitome of where Jaejoong would go when angry. And the words he says to Junsu. It's the truth spit out at him, and Junsu doesn't know what to say when faced with the idea that Jaejoong knows about the previous hatred and the uncertainty now with how he feels. Does everyone know everything and maybe he's left in the dark?

Junsu is more confusing than anyone. He hates what he feels, hates that he has the desires but hates the idea of just liking them not because he feels its wrong but because he knows its not going to work. Its Jaejoong and Changmin and he's not sure if he fits in this calculation or not.

I'm not sure if any of this is right. The entire situation is just too amazing for me to say anything. There's so much there and even with Yoochun and Yunho playing back roles they are so much apart of this. It's amazing how well you've written this out. I just have no real words to describe how amazing this plot is and how amazingly well you've written this out.

Seriously I cannot wait until the next part. ♥

[dystopialights]

So - long, elqoquent comments deserves an equally long, eloquent response... but I'm afraid I've got nothing D: You've really laid out a lot of the layers I was creating within the fic - I didn't want any relationship to seem one-dimensional or completely one-sided, but neither did I want to be too blatant about it, either. Therefore I can just say I'm both awed by your insight and flattered that you like it so much.

I can only hope the finale will live up to expectations. Thank you so much for reading and commenting - despite my late reply, this comment really made my day :D♥