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I just turned on 'get your dukes up' by modest mouse, and it reminded me of driving the aztec down bernardston road. It was summer then, and I was living with Sharon and going to her house.
The past two days have been kinda hard on me. Breaking up with Jake, then wanting to be back with him even though I shouldn't. I just called him a few minutes ago though, and we're done. Which in reason, is absolutely best for a few reasons, but I hate being alone, so much. Yesterday was pretty lousy too. Between missing Jake and being at work, I definatly wanted to shoot myself. I hung out with Midget after though, which was very pleasant. We stopped by Kits, then I went home. I got my car stuck in the middle of my driveway. So I had to wake my dad up for the second time and he was not pumped. He was screaming at me, after he told me that I never think of anyone besides myself, that I was stupid, and he said something else that really hurt, but I don't remember what it was. Nonetheless, I cried all night. This morning he apologized, I dunno though, I think it's because Kathy was right there. I just kinda shook my head and shuffled away.
Last night I was thinking a lot about how I miss Sharon, I need someone to talk to. I could always tell her everything, and even if I visited with her, it's still hard for me to just whip up everything, it takes time for me to say things. Either way I really need to see her soon. I miss her so much.
I started counceling the other day, I like the woman so far. I think she'll work out just fine, we certainly will have plenty to talk about the next time we meet.
I need to get ready for work now, 12-5, it's definatly going to be a drag. And there is school tommorrow, another drag. Bleh.
Peace.
The past two days have been kinda hard on me. Breaking up with Jake, then wanting to be back with him even though I shouldn't. I just called him a few minutes ago though, and we're done. Which in reason, is absolutely best for a few reasons, but I hate being alone, so much. Yesterday was pretty lousy too. Between missing Jake and being at work, I definatly wanted to shoot myself. I hung out with Midget after though, which was very pleasant. We stopped by Kits, then I went home. I got my car stuck in the middle of my driveway. So I had to wake my dad up for the second time and he was not pumped. He was screaming at me, after he told me that I never think of anyone besides myself, that I was stupid, and he said something else that really hurt, but I don't remember what it was. Nonetheless, I cried all night. This morning he apologized, I dunno though, I think it's because Kathy was right there. I just kinda shook my head and shuffled away.
Last night I was thinking a lot about how I miss Sharon, I need someone to talk to. I could always tell her everything, and even if I visited with her, it's still hard for me to just whip up everything, it takes time for me to say things. Either way I really need to see her soon. I miss her so much.
I started counceling the other day, I like the woman so far. I think she'll work out just fine, we certainly will have plenty to talk about the next time we meet.
I need to get ready for work now, 12-5, it's definatly going to be a drag. And there is school tommorrow, another drag. Bleh.
Peace.