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SO I'm here at GSA, surrounded by all these people who are so dedicated to art of all forms. It's amazing to walk around with, converse with, and get to know all of these amazing people. We're all so different, yet we each have something major in common- our love of the arts. In a way, it's almost weird how nice we all are to each other. But weird in an extremely cool way.
Hmm.. the only thing that I don't really enjoy about being here is feeling so.. inadequate. Sure, musicaly theatre geeks can supposedly dance, act, and sing. At least a little bit. But all we're doing is interpreting something that someone else has created. I can't write a poem or monologue. I can't compose a song. I can't play any instruments very well. I can't paint a picture, or create a clay figure. Above all, I would give anything to be able to speak and write poetically. There's just something about the way poets speak that entrances me. I wish that I could do that. But no, I don't even know if my sentence structure is correct.
But worst of all.. the thing that I don't like about myself is that I'm always wishing for something else instead of what I have. The more uninterested a guy acts, the more I wish he would fall for me. The comfier clothes that I wear, the more I wish I was dressed up. When dressed up, I wish for a pair of basketball shorts and a tshirt. I wish that I were a year younger. I wish I were more talented. I was I was more than "above average." I wish I was more likeable. Above all... I wish that for more than small increments of time (a week here and there) I could be truly happy with who I am. I suppose that's something I should work on.
But I'm going to go socialize for another hour before floor checks. Love you all...
High notes and root beer floats,
Belle
Hmm.. the only thing that I don't really enjoy about being here is feeling so.. inadequate. Sure, musicaly theatre geeks can supposedly dance, act, and sing. At least a little bit. But all we're doing is interpreting something that someone else has created. I can't write a poem or monologue. I can't compose a song. I can't play any instruments very well. I can't paint a picture, or create a clay figure. Above all, I would give anything to be able to speak and write poetically. There's just something about the way poets speak that entrances me. I wish that I could do that. But no, I don't even know if my sentence structure is correct.
But worst of all.. the thing that I don't like about myself is that I'm always wishing for something else instead of what I have. The more uninterested a guy acts, the more I wish he would fall for me. The comfier clothes that I wear, the more I wish I was dressed up. When dressed up, I wish for a pair of basketball shorts and a tshirt. I wish that I were a year younger. I wish I were more talented. I was I was more than "above average." I wish I was more likeable. Above all... I wish that for more than small increments of time (a week here and there) I could be truly happy with who I am. I suppose that's something I should work on.
But I'm going to go socialize for another hour before floor checks. Love you all...
High notes and root beer floats,
Belle