chapter one: limbo
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I've never wanted to conform to what is generally expected of a livejournal.com post, so let's remove the label and let this be preachjournal.com for a bit.
YOU'VE DUG YOURSELF INTO A HOLE. You've overanalyzed so much in your life that you have discovered TOO many things about yourself. This makes living difficult for you. But you never bitch or moan, unless its about "the stupid people." THE STUPID PEOPLE (or TSP) are the people YOU consider "dumber" than yourself. Sadly, they are probably enjoying themselves way more than you ever will.
HOWEVER, on the other end of the spectrum, if you aren't being over-analytical you'll just become one of TSP. So, sadly, you're in LIMBO. You can't climb up--WAIT. "UP" and "DOWN" are associated with higher and lower opinions of things. We're going to use LEFT AND RIGHT. You can't dig left--you'll be trapped with your over-analytical mind even further than you already are. And if you climb right, you'll meet up with the rest of TSP, which right now are the people you "hate."
PERHAPS the only way to truly be happy is just to LIVE LIFE. But why would you want to live life if you've decided that knowing less is more. But come on--this can't be true. If you knew nothing you'd be another one of TSP.
YOU BEING SAD is FINE. HOWEVER. WHAT IS NOT FINE IS WHEN MOTHERFUCKERS LIKE YOU COME TO A GROUP OF PEOPLE WITH A BIG OLD :( ON YOUR FACE EXPECTING PEOPLE TO GO "oh bill whats wrong omg wtf" if you have a problem you should bring it up instead of being COLD and pretending you don't want to talk about it until someone brings it up.
YOU TALKING JUST TO TALK is not helping anyone or anything. SHUT. THE FUCK. UP.
OPINIONS. Respect other people's and be smart enough to think for yourself and devise your own opinions. Agreeing with someone is not creating a FAD and is NOT jumping on the bandwagon, so don't worry about that. But to disagree JUST to disagree makes you the scum of the earth.
"EMO" IS NOT A FUCKING GENRE OF MUSIC. 99% of all music is created AROUND some sort of emotion. So, if it WERE a genre, then ALL MUSIC would be classified as EMO. For those of you who disagree and "hate emo," how about this bombshell--your precious NINE INCH NAILS, their song HURT is the KING of "EMO" songs.
"EMO" KIDS--get the fuck off of my planet. I mean, I know you're kewl, cause everyone hates you, including yourself, and you write poetry and make out with members of the same sex cause no one of the opposite could possibly be attracted to you, and your hair is out of a bad 80s movie, and you wear tight girl pants--THE TIGHTEST girl pants--and don't forget how kewl suicide is. If you were fucking what emo is SUPPOSED to be, you wouldnt be drawing yourself in a noose on your arm, leading into the word "PAIN" with each letter on each knuckle and a :( on your thumb's knuckle, you'd've been hanging in one years ago. You're not cool. You're a fucking FAD. Like POGS. And BEANIE BABIES.
CLOSED MINDEDNESS is basically RACISM. PSYCHOLOGICAL RACISM. What about you when you think RACISM is BAD. Isn't that, in a way, racism? I mean its what those people BELIEVE IN, just like how YOU believe in GOD or in EVOLUTION.
WHY ARE YOU GOING TO PARTIES to see everyone you hate get drunk and high? Does this please you? Does this make you respect them less? Do you get off on being able to say you don't respect them? Get back to me on that.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE? What an "EMO" question. Here's why you're asking. You've come to the conclusion that everyone and everything is derived from the desire to PROCREATE. LONG LIVE THE HUMAN RACE. Which leads you to believe that you can be nothing more than friendly, while attracted to a member of the opposite/same sex. You think love is as far as "good friends+sex." Maybe you're right. Tell me when you climb out of that hole.
THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS SELFLESSNESS unless you are LITERALLY sacrificing yourself for the good of someone else, for no reason at all other than to help them. Every act you perform on this earth is in some way to benefit yourself. Even if it hurts you, it also feels good to sacrifice your participating in something if it makes someone happy.
ANGER IS OVERRATED. "I'M MAD AT YOU FUCK YOU" is fucking ridiculous and makes no progress in a relationship, and it sure as hell doesn't benefit either party. If you have a problem you do one of two things.
_______#1 - you sit down and talk it out like two smart human beings.
---OR---
_______#2 - in the rare case you'd rather LITERALLY never speak with them again, just cut em out of your life. THIS DOES NOT MEAN YOU DON'T SPEAK TO THEM EXCEPT WHEN THEY CALL YOU UP. THIS MEANS YOU CUT THEM THE FUCK OUT.
YOU CAN'T JUDGE A GENRE OF MUSIC by the people who listen to it.
EVERYONE IS A HYPOCRITE. One of the smartest people you've ever met told you that, and you better believe it.
A PROMISE is nothing more than an excuse to let me yell at you when you break it. So instead, I'll take your WORD--assuming you aren't a lying bastard.
LIFE SUCKS--but only if you let it.
QUIT SMOKING. I don't believe that you don't have the willpower to NOT smoke for a week. I don't believe it. "EASIER SAID THAN DONE" right? No. You throw out your cigarrettes and your lighters and when someone offers you one you say "NO." Fuck the cravings and if you can't handle yourself well enough to keep control over what habits you're involved with, then you are quite the pathetic excuse for a human being. You don't deserve free will.
I've never wanted to conform to what is generally expected of a livejournal.com post, so let's remove the label and let this be preachjournal.com for a bit.
YOU'VE DUG YOURSELF INTO A HOLE. You've overanalyzed so much in your life that you have discovered TOO many things about yourself. This makes living difficult for you. But you never bitch or moan, unless its about "the stupid people." THE STUPID PEOPLE (or TSP) are the people YOU consider "dumber" than yourself. Sadly, they are probably enjoying themselves way more than you ever will.
HOWEVER, on the other end of the spectrum, if you aren't being over-analytical you'll just become one of TSP. So, sadly, you're in LIMBO. You can't climb up--WAIT. "UP" and "DOWN" are associated with higher and lower opinions of things. We're going to use LEFT AND RIGHT. You can't dig left--you'll be trapped with your over-analytical mind even further than you already are. And if you climb right, you'll meet up with the rest of TSP, which right now are the people you "hate."
PERHAPS the only way to truly be happy is just to LIVE LIFE. But why would you want to live life if you've decided that knowing less is more. But come on--this can't be true. If you knew nothing you'd be another one of TSP.
YOU BEING SAD is FINE. HOWEVER. WHAT IS NOT FINE IS WHEN MOTHERFUCKERS LIKE YOU COME TO A GROUP OF PEOPLE WITH A BIG OLD :( ON YOUR FACE EXPECTING PEOPLE TO GO "oh bill whats wrong omg wtf" if you have a problem you should bring it up instead of being COLD and pretending you don't want to talk about it until someone brings it up.
YOU TALKING JUST TO TALK is not helping anyone or anything. SHUT. THE FUCK. UP.
OPINIONS. Respect other people's and be smart enough to think for yourself and devise your own opinions. Agreeing with someone is not creating a FAD and is NOT jumping on the bandwagon, so don't worry about that. But to disagree JUST to disagree makes you the scum of the earth.
"EMO" IS NOT A FUCKING GENRE OF MUSIC. 99% of all music is created AROUND some sort of emotion. So, if it WERE a genre, then ALL MUSIC would be classified as EMO. For those of you who disagree and "hate emo," how about this bombshell--your precious NINE INCH NAILS, their song HURT is the KING of "EMO" songs.
"EMO" KIDS--get the fuck off of my planet. I mean, I know you're kewl, cause everyone hates you, including yourself, and you write poetry and make out with members of the same sex cause no one of the opposite could possibly be attracted to you, and your hair is out of a bad 80s movie, and you wear tight girl pants--THE TIGHTEST girl pants--and don't forget how kewl suicide is. If you were fucking what emo is SUPPOSED to be, you wouldnt be drawing yourself in a noose on your arm, leading into the word "PAIN" with each letter on each knuckle and a :( on your thumb's knuckle, you'd've been hanging in one years ago. You're not cool. You're a fucking FAD. Like POGS. And BEANIE BABIES.
CLOSED MINDEDNESS is basically RACISM. PSYCHOLOGICAL RACISM. What about you when you think RACISM is BAD. Isn't that, in a way, racism? I mean its what those people BELIEVE IN, just like how YOU believe in GOD or in EVOLUTION.
WHY ARE YOU GOING TO PARTIES to see everyone you hate get drunk and high? Does this please you? Does this make you respect them less? Do you get off on being able to say you don't respect them? Get back to me on that.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE? What an "EMO" question. Here's why you're asking. You've come to the conclusion that everyone and everything is derived from the desire to PROCREATE. LONG LIVE THE HUMAN RACE. Which leads you to believe that you can be nothing more than friendly, while attracted to a member of the opposite/same sex. You think love is as far as "good friends+sex." Maybe you're right. Tell me when you climb out of that hole.
THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS SELFLESSNESS unless you are LITERALLY sacrificing yourself for the good of someone else, for no reason at all other than to help them. Every act you perform on this earth is in some way to benefit yourself. Even if it hurts you, it also feels good to sacrifice your participating in something if it makes someone happy.
ANGER IS OVERRATED. "I'M MAD AT YOU FUCK YOU" is fucking ridiculous and makes no progress in a relationship, and it sure as hell doesn't benefit either party. If you have a problem you do one of two things.
_______#1 - you sit down and talk it out like two smart human beings.
---OR---
_______#2 - in the rare case you'd rather LITERALLY never speak with them again, just cut em out of your life. THIS DOES NOT MEAN YOU DON'T SPEAK TO THEM EXCEPT WHEN THEY CALL YOU UP. THIS MEANS YOU CUT THEM THE FUCK OUT.
YOU CAN'T JUDGE A GENRE OF MUSIC by the people who listen to it.
EVERYONE IS A HYPOCRITE. One of the smartest people you've ever met told you that, and you better believe it.
A PROMISE is nothing more than an excuse to let me yell at you when you break it. So instead, I'll take your WORD--assuming you aren't a lying bastard.
LIFE SUCKS--but only if you let it.
QUIT SMOKING. I don't believe that you don't have the willpower to NOT smoke for a week. I don't believe it. "EASIER SAID THAN DONE" right? No. You throw out your cigarrettes and your lighters and when someone offers you one you say "NO." Fuck the cravings and if you can't handle yourself well enough to keep control over what habits you're involved with, then you are quite the pathetic excuse for a human being. You don't deserve free will.