Wonders... miracles... did I unintentionally tie this rant together? O_o;
Today started out alright. Not great, but alright. I got to work and suprisingly things went well, really well. I started two hours later than everyone and in the first 40 minutes I was there I had overtaken everyone else in sales and was just enjoying myself. More importantly - I was doing an awesome job of ignoring my boss/mother. She did end up getting on my case, even when I found her earring. She loses things like that a lot and I just happened upon it in the shop. Stupidly I got the idea to sell it after I gave it back to her.
So yeah, she got pissy at me and tried to make me look like an idiot. I'm happy to say that all attempts were met with smart-assed comments and a deflection or two. I love shifting the blame back on her ^_^ But yeah, it got me down a little. Then I got home and things have just been pretty boring.
Oh, I helped Amy out at work a bit and got her an extra warranty too. I've missed the brat a little since she's been house-sitting. Okay, it's been 2 days now, but it's weird when she doesn't come home at all.
Today I was also really suprised when I realised I have a BoA song I'd never listened to before! I loaded a whole bunch of stuff onto my MP3 player last night and it just happened to be on there. I don't know how I've managed to miss a BoA song ('Miracle' in case you're wondering... it has violins!!! <3) of all things, but I did it. Still I really like the song, it's cute and it made my day a bit easier.
Lately I've been thinking a lot on getting in touch with people. For possibly the first time I'm making conscious effort to spend more time with people. I said to a few people that I'll get in contact with them and instead of just saying it to appease them and get them off my case (like with my father and family) I actually mean to do it. I've tried calling Kelly a lot but it just doesn't seem to be working out. She's either out or working, and now I've found that she's going away for a while soon. I haven't the time to call Craig. But I've somehow managed to organise going out for a while on Saturday with Katie. That should be interesting, I've found that I really enjoy talking to her lately and I hope it doesn't get weird. I'm already thinking I should just go back to my old ways and live in my room or venture out by myself.
It just seems like so much effort. I guess the problem with me is coming out of my comfort zone. Approaching people can lead to rejection and when you don't mind being alone, rejection is a completely unnecessary risk to take. Still, I feel as though I want to see these people and have them in my life. Some people I want to have in my life I just can't. Oceans in the way and all that. It's a bitch, but I'm working on it ^_^ But as for the people here, I'll take a few more risks and if it doesn't work out there isn't any real loss. I mean, I could possibly have done a few extra pages of manga, but I can live with that. Nothing ventured nothing gained, so they say.
I'm sure there were a couple more epiphanies I had today, but pondering on the pros and cons of bothering with human relations seems to be all I can trascribe. I'm a bit tired now ^_^ I think it's cause tonight is the first night in a loooooong time that I've had dinner. I even kinda cooked it. Yep, that's how desperate I was to eat *lol* Maybe it's true when they say 'wonders will never cease'?
So yeah, she got pissy at me and tried to make me look like an idiot. I'm happy to say that all attempts were met with smart-assed comments and a deflection or two. I love shifting the blame back on her ^_^ But yeah, it got me down a little. Then I got home and things have just been pretty boring.
Oh, I helped Amy out at work a bit and got her an extra warranty too. I've missed the brat a little since she's been house-sitting. Okay, it's been 2 days now, but it's weird when she doesn't come home at all.
Today I was also really suprised when I realised I have a BoA song I'd never listened to before! I loaded a whole bunch of stuff onto my MP3 player last night and it just happened to be on there. I don't know how I've managed to miss a BoA song ('Miracle' in case you're wondering... it has violins!!! <3) of all things, but I did it. Still I really like the song, it's cute and it made my day a bit easier.
Lately I've been thinking a lot on getting in touch with people. For possibly the first time I'm making conscious effort to spend more time with people. I said to a few people that I'll get in contact with them and instead of just saying it to appease them and get them off my case (like with my father and family) I actually mean to do it. I've tried calling Kelly a lot but it just doesn't seem to be working out. She's either out or working, and now I've found that she's going away for a while soon. I haven't the time to call Craig. But I've somehow managed to organise going out for a while on Saturday with Katie. That should be interesting, I've found that I really enjoy talking to her lately and I hope it doesn't get weird. I'm already thinking I should just go back to my old ways and live in my room or venture out by myself.
It just seems like so much effort. I guess the problem with me is coming out of my comfort zone. Approaching people can lead to rejection and when you don't mind being alone, rejection is a completely unnecessary risk to take. Still, I feel as though I want to see these people and have them in my life. Some people I want to have in my life I just can't. Oceans in the way and all that. It's a bitch, but I'm working on it ^_^ But as for the people here, I'll take a few more risks and if it doesn't work out there isn't any real loss. I mean, I could possibly have done a few extra pages of manga, but I can live with that. Nothing ventured nothing gained, so they say.
I'm sure there were a couple more epiphanies I had today, but pondering on the pros and cons of bothering with human relations seems to be all I can trascribe. I'm a bit tired now ^_^ I think it's cause tonight is the first night in a loooooong time that I've had dinner. I even kinda cooked it. Yep, that's how desperate I was to eat *lol* Maybe it's true when they say 'wonders will never cease'?