gay

[dylanfreak76]

not happy though. think stinky, crappy, bad. i hate falling in love sometimes because of all the tricky shit that comes along with it. like forgetting that eventually there will be envy, confusion, misunderstandings.. and you put aside many friends for the one person. so when they're not getting along with you, whammo! loneliness. life sucks and love stinks! that's what I say on the first day of spring!! :) what kind of year is this going to be?? 32, the year of craziness??? when oh when is it ever going to be GREAT and stay that way, Lord, please??!! The only thing that makes me feel better is to realize I'm a soft, spoiled, comfortable brat. Many men out there sleep with rocks for pillows and booze for comfort, night in and night out. I have a loving man and a gigantic bed, at least. He is a sweet man, which apparently more than I have pointed out to him in past months :), which makes the ol' jealousy rear it's ugly head! I don't know, what do you think.. Is it Ok with if your partner goes out to lunch with a friend of the opposite sex instead of you? I might just be nuts. Yes, I think I am. Because it's not Ok with me when I've fallen in love :( so. here we are then. the only good thing I do is run. run run run away on the treadmill in the hopes that a dedication to improving my body will help fill in the puzzle.

speaking of puzzles, i've recently developed a thing for doing them again. the things you can do with an extra two hours a day! I figured out that that is roughly the amount of time I spent smoking. Imagine if you quit cooking your food and ate it raw and whole! So many extra minutes not spent cooking and shopping..

anywho... peace to all... happy spring