screaming for meaning

[dyingday]

I'm standing in the sun, straight up on my feet. THe left side of my face warmed by the light. The right side shadowed and hidden. For this is more true than you know. My left side stronger than my right. The right waiting to catch up, but there lies a brick wall right between my eyes. My right is never wrong, and the left is never right for they just cant seem to see eye to eye, this left and right. I can't break this wall. I can't see through to the other side. Stopped in my tracks I feel motionless. My left is nothing without my right, my right cant be found until the left arrives. But we together are fighting for a separate direction of the wills that lead to the same destination. Only I cant see where I am going. This wall as tall as a mountain as wide as a river runs straight through my heart. Can't see beyond these walls. One side separated from the other. TAke it from me al of it from me all of it away form all the things I all ways knew and bring to your feet almighty one...
I'm only half a man waiting for the other half to arrive. It's been 18 years and I feel like maybe he's missed his train.

And the truth is that I'm screaming for meaning in a world of deaf ears. Screaming for meaning in a world that can't hear