hello again loves
it has been entirely too long since i've updated my lj. it's been a long time since i've written anything actually. guess i haven't felt i had anything inside me worth putting on paper or in my lj. writting has always helped me sort out the inner workings of my mind but here lately i haven't wanted anyone to see inside me. guess i thought if i wrote it down and everyone could see it that i'd have to admit my defeat.
things have gone from bad to worse to awful and now are back to geting decent. long story short; i've moved out of my old apartment with Rachelle and owe her money for last month's rent. i owe lots of people money. Wes and some of our other friends helped me "break and enter" to get my stuff. Wes and i are now living together and although this wasn't the pretense we wanted to live together under,i'm glad that i had him to help me get through these tough times. guess he really is my knight in shinning armor;)
hard to believe the past couple of months have gone by at such an incredibly fast pace. next month, wes and i will have been dating 8 months. i feel like i've known him so much longer yet everyday i learn new things about him. i look forward to him comming home to me and i love being able to go places with him on my arm. how did i get so lucky? i am super excited about our future together. we have come a long way as individuals and as a couple and i can't imagine our relationship getting anything but stronger.
i'm looking more fervently for employment. i am very grateful to David and Nash for helping me even though it's hard for me to accept anyones help even Wes's. we updated my resume and im currently compiling a list of the addresses and phone numbers of my previous employers. all i can do is keep filling out apps everyday and calling to see what the status is on said applications. i pray that i will get some interviews and that something good will happen and i will get hired and be able to start making money. i am tired of relying on other people to support me(wes, my dad etc.) i am tired of money hindering my realtionship with Wes. and my sex life for that matter. i want to work and make things easier to proceed with future plans. moving into a place with wes, going back to school and finally finishing some kind of degree. i'd love to take wes to north carolina to meet christie and jordyn and jonathan and get some of my stuff. nothing would make me happier than connecting those two parts of me.
i am also working on how i conduct myself socially. i want people to find me interesting and i want people to like me. both a blessing and a curse. i need to stop being soo dependant on Wes to make me comfortable and include me. i need to stop being soo introverted and scared and just be myself.
i've been reading a lot recently(what else do i do with all this excess time?) and i am completely consumed with the Twilight series. what's not to love about vampires and werewolves?
things have gone from bad to worse to awful and now are back to geting decent. long story short; i've moved out of my old apartment with Rachelle and owe her money for last month's rent. i owe lots of people money. Wes and some of our other friends helped me "break and enter" to get my stuff. Wes and i are now living together and although this wasn't the pretense we wanted to live together under,i'm glad that i had him to help me get through these tough times. guess he really is my knight in shinning armor;)
hard to believe the past couple of months have gone by at such an incredibly fast pace. next month, wes and i will have been dating 8 months. i feel like i've known him so much longer yet everyday i learn new things about him. i look forward to him comming home to me and i love being able to go places with him on my arm. how did i get so lucky? i am super excited about our future together. we have come a long way as individuals and as a couple and i can't imagine our relationship getting anything but stronger.
i'm looking more fervently for employment. i am very grateful to David and Nash for helping me even though it's hard for me to accept anyones help even Wes's. we updated my resume and im currently compiling a list of the addresses and phone numbers of my previous employers. all i can do is keep filling out apps everyday and calling to see what the status is on said applications. i pray that i will get some interviews and that something good will happen and i will get hired and be able to start making money. i am tired of relying on other people to support me(wes, my dad etc.) i am tired of money hindering my realtionship with Wes. and my sex life for that matter. i want to work and make things easier to proceed with future plans. moving into a place with wes, going back to school and finally finishing some kind of degree. i'd love to take wes to north carolina to meet christie and jordyn and jonathan and get some of my stuff. nothing would make me happier than connecting those two parts of me.
i am also working on how i conduct myself socially. i want people to find me interesting and i want people to like me. both a blessing and a curse. i need to stop being soo dependant on Wes to make me comfortable and include me. i need to stop being soo introverted and scared and just be myself.
i've been reading a lot recently(what else do i do with all this excess time?) and i am completely consumed with the Twilight series. what's not to love about vampires and werewolves?