jesus so much to say....
well, I figured it had been far too long since I'd written an actual entry and not just re-posted surveys or posted pictures...
The weather is nice today, I guess spring is finally here... I'm excited. All the pretty weather, sun and breezy days have motivated me to go out and walk .For the past two days I've been trying to appreciate all of nature's goodness. Doesn't hurt that I'm getting much needed excercise at the same time. As much as I hate to admit it, I've let myself go and I want to fix it.... I figure nows as good a time as any... I want to improve myself physically... gotta keep up with my hottie boyfriend...
I didn't enroll in school this semester.... I don't know why other than I didn't feel very academically inclined. don't get me wrong i love to learn new things and meet new people but there are somethings i wanted to fix with myself and school would have distracted me from those. someday i might get back into the groove of school and getting a degree in something "useful" so as to help secure a more professional career path but for now i find myself researching more creative outlooks. i don't want to go to school just because the funds are avalible and unlimited, i think that would be a waste of others money and my time.
i've been getting back into writting.... for a while it was so hard to follow through with my thoughts and ideas, hell even putting a sentence on paper wasnt fufilling... all i felt i did was churn out crap.... ive realized that if i only write a couple sentences a day or a pargraph in my journal, it's way better than nothing... and maybe i'm my own worst critic.. all i've ever wanted to do was be a sucessful writer, ever since i was little... i'm still working on my poetry, my short stories, reviews, trying to broaden my spectrum... i figure if i hangout with creative people, inspiration might rub off... it's intimidating that Wes is such a talented person, period... he's a good witer( even if i've only read one story) and he's my biggest inspiration at the moment.
i still haven't gotten a job, it's been almost 5 months since i've been in ohio.... guess i'm just suffering from the princess syndrome... i was fortunate to inherit enough money to keep myself afloat untill i can get my shit together and figure out where my life is going. well the gravy train is fast running out and i realize that i have to work to survive... i've had some fun... i bought phones, cable, clothes, etc and now most important is paying my bills and putting food in my cupboards and gas in my car... shouldn't be too hard to get a job, lots of places are hiring and now that i've gotten over being spoiled i will suck it up and put myself out there and hustle lol
i have made some plans for the future and i have my sights set on them... i need to work and make money. i will save and try and get myself out of ohio... i dont know exactly where i'm going but i don't have intentions of staying here any longer than nescessary. i hope Wes will be along for the journey... i can't see myself gonig anywhere without him... he's such a major part of my life.
i still can't believe for the last 3 months, my life has been quite full of suprise, all of them good. i am in the most fufilling and amazing relationship i've ever had.. i am soo lucky that i stumbled upon such a wonderful guy. i keep thinking he will get tired of me and all my idiosyncrocies but he doesn't. i fall more and more in love with him, day after day. i miss him even when he's gone for small amounts of time. i feel i've found my best friend and my soulmate wrapped in one. he is the sweetest. he never fails to make me smile and i am happiest doing nothing just as long as i'm with him. he tells me i'm beautiful when i look like crud and he touches me in ways i never thought possible. i am soo spoiled. i love him with all my heart and i hope and pray that he knows how special to me he is.
i'll type more at another time....