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Its raining. I'm sitting inside. My aunt (dads sister) is sitting downstairs with my mom talking. She walked in and you could tell she'd been crying. I think my mom told her about her dating somebody. My life is turning way crappier then I thought. I thought I'd hit bottem but I was wrong. My brother leaves for California tommorw. Im worried abotu him cause I found out that he was flying Alone. I really am nervous about it. He wants to take me to Califorina. Not now but sometime soon. I really wanna go...just to get away from everything.
Me and Zech are close still. I feel like since we've broken up, all I wanna do is talk to him or see him, Like it made me want to see him more and talk to him more, just so i know he wont forget about me. I know it sounds lame. But Leah seems to be the only one who understands any of me and zechs situation. I love him...thats all i know. My mom wants to go stay at her boyfriends house. Whatever i mean she can do what she wants. I dont really have a say in anything anymore.
I've never wanted my dad here more. I never ever have. He would of been there for me when zech dumped me. we wouldnt be in sucha tight money situation, nothing would be falling apart accept me and zech. I dont even know what to say about me and zech. All i wanna do is be aroudn him. I realized this summer is probally going to be the worse summer ever. I have nothing to look forward to anymore. I have nothing to get excited about. Not even the fireworks. I use to be so into them, id get so excited. now its like...yeah fireworks. Zechs still gunan go with me to see them...but its liek sucha romantic setting i feel like ...idk.
everything in my life is to confuesing, People i thought would be there for me arnt. people i thought i was so close to ignore me. I hate this. I just want abby to come back down here and help me with this.....I just want....everything to be back to normal, i want abby down here and happy, i want mandi to not do dumb bad things, i want me and zech to be happy TOGETHER, and most of all...i want my dad back
Me and Zech are close still. I feel like since we've broken up, all I wanna do is talk to him or see him, Like it made me want to see him more and talk to him more, just so i know he wont forget about me. I know it sounds lame. But Leah seems to be the only one who understands any of me and zechs situation. I love him...thats all i know. My mom wants to go stay at her boyfriends house. Whatever i mean she can do what she wants. I dont really have a say in anything anymore.
I've never wanted my dad here more. I never ever have. He would of been there for me when zech dumped me. we wouldnt be in sucha tight money situation, nothing would be falling apart accept me and zech. I dont even know what to say about me and zech. All i wanna do is be aroudn him. I realized this summer is probally going to be the worse summer ever. I have nothing to look forward to anymore. I have nothing to get excited about. Not even the fireworks. I use to be so into them, id get so excited. now its like...yeah fireworks. Zechs still gunan go with me to see them...but its liek sucha romantic setting i feel like ...idk.
everything in my life is to confuesing, People i thought would be there for me arnt. people i thought i was so close to ignore me. I hate this. I just want abby to come back down here and help me with this.....I just want....everything to be back to normal, i want abby down here and happy, i want mandi to not do dumb bad things, i want me and zech to be happy TOGETHER, and most of all...i want my dad back