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Everything is so much harder then i thought. Ive cried way to many hours. Then dyed my hair...big mistake. My eyes still burn from the dye. I never thought I would fall apart so much in the past week. I didnt know everything I counted on was getting ready to leave. Now im here with nothing...Nothing to hold onto, nobody to tell me its gunna be okay...I've got nothing. I hate when people tell you that you will get over it...Nobody quite gets the whoel story. Nobody gets everything else thats falling apart. Nobody gets how much I counted on him.
I can't help but cry most the day away. My mom doesnt want me driving...at all. She thinks im to upset. She thinks i'll kill myself. Maybe it is best if i don't drive...Nothing in my life is going right. Everybody has changed. I reach out to my "friends" and theyre all differnt. There not the same kids from a year ago. Theyre all differnt. I don't like it at all. Abby is up north...This is one of those times in my life i really need her and shes not here. I told her yesterday on the phone I wasnt going to make it. Shes scared. I'm scared. I wish this would all just go away.
I wish it would stop hurting. I wish everything was differnt. I have nothing left to count on. Nobody gets it...I'm alone...completely.
I can't help but cry most the day away. My mom doesnt want me driving...at all. She thinks im to upset. She thinks i'll kill myself. Maybe it is best if i don't drive...Nothing in my life is going right. Everybody has changed. I reach out to my "friends" and theyre all differnt. There not the same kids from a year ago. Theyre all differnt. I don't like it at all. Abby is up north...This is one of those times in my life i really need her and shes not here. I told her yesterday on the phone I wasnt going to make it. Shes scared. I'm scared. I wish this would all just go away.
I wish it would stop hurting. I wish everything was differnt. I have nothing left to count on. Nobody gets it...I'm alone...completely.