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I burned myself yesterday. I think I will end up cutting tonight, I really cannot be bothered or want to resist any urges, I FUCKING ahte myself right now. I feel like such a screw up despite the fact that I have no reason to. I really think life was only a decpetion untill now, the sweet call of the blade and the really think that I should answer. across my throat, I hate everything about myself right now.
I will pay anyone a grand to kill me, just so I dont become a burden to others anymore. My friends really are probably sick of me babling on like some sort of manic depressive but its not like I am some sort of happy-go-lucky person because its soo not me. I hate everything and will pay anyone to kill me. I am such a fucking idiot!
I will pay anyone a grand to kill me, just so I dont become a burden to others anymore. My friends really are probably sick of me babling on like some sort of manic depressive but its not like I am some sort of happy-go-lucky person because its soo not me. I hate everything and will pay anyone to kill me. I am such a fucking idiot!