Do you know glorious?
"let the refining and improving of your own life keep you so busy that you have little time to criticize others"- H. Jackson Brown.
Nothing's more glorious then having a agenda. Yeah I imagine it would have been expected of me to say the usuals in regards to glorious things but keeping busy and active can truly give a person a feeling of completion or fulfillment.
This weekend for instance, I was out and having a good time and normally I would want to go home because I am " tired" or whatnot but not this time. I was the last to leave from both events and it felt good, not only that but I thorougly enjoyed everyone that I was with because I did make it my business to have some fun and put all the mess away. Laughing and being around people who just genuinely enjoy life and more importantly,me.
For years despite me having a busy schedule I seemed to be lacking something, I felt like their was some kind of big nothing thrashing about in me that wasn't being satisfied. But I dunno, I 've been trying to fill my time productively and try and really enjoy the things I do rather it be spiritual, secular, or school related, just really appreciate the fact that I am needed by people and that I can be in control of things if I just take a hold of my strengths and try to cultivate them.
See, that's always been a problem. Seems like I've spent alot of time working on the "eh" things, you know, the things that make individuals crazy because their is no validation in those mediocre things that we tinker with and so we feel this hollow feeling of worthlessness. Man how long have I occupied that feeling.
I kinda feel like I'm on a crowded street, Like I'm out their and ultimately that's whats going to get me to where I need to be. Finally I am hobbling along . I'm actually OUT THERE.
Nothing's more glorious then having a agenda. Yeah I imagine it would have been expected of me to say the usuals in regards to glorious things but keeping busy and active can truly give a person a feeling of completion or fulfillment.
This weekend for instance, I was out and having a good time and normally I would want to go home because I am " tired" or whatnot but not this time. I was the last to leave from both events and it felt good, not only that but I thorougly enjoyed everyone that I was with because I did make it my business to have some fun and put all the mess away. Laughing and being around people who just genuinely enjoy life and more importantly,me.
For years despite me having a busy schedule I seemed to be lacking something, I felt like their was some kind of big nothing thrashing about in me that wasn't being satisfied. But I dunno, I 've been trying to fill my time productively and try and really enjoy the things I do rather it be spiritual, secular, or school related, just really appreciate the fact that I am needed by people and that I can be in control of things if I just take a hold of my strengths and try to cultivate them.
See, that's always been a problem. Seems like I've spent alot of time working on the "eh" things, you know, the things that make individuals crazy because their is no validation in those mediocre things that we tinker with and so we feel this hollow feeling of worthlessness. Man how long have I occupied that feeling.
I kinda feel like I'm on a crowded street, Like I'm out their and ultimately that's whats going to get me to where I need to be. Finally I am hobbling along . I'm actually OUT THERE.