QUESTION: Why do you think Vincent still chose to commit suicide if he knew he would be a success? Is it because he thinks he has imagined the whole thing? Or is it simply because he is clinically depressed and kills himself in a bad spell? I don't mean to be insensitive to those who have experienced mental illness but my friend and I were genuinely wondering.
As the Doctor said - the good things don't cancel out the bad things. You can have a hundred good things in your life, but if you're depressed, you won't be able to see them or take comfort from them - no matter how often you see them before your very eyes.
The world seems different to a depressed person. The happy things that other people seem to experience seem like a whole other world when you're depressed. People might tell you that you've got plenty to live for, but try as you might, you can't see it. You just...can't. For a depressed person, those happy things might as well not exist.
It did. It's hard for people who havn't experienced that feeling to know or really understand how a depressed person might feel so its good that you explained it to me :)
It's possible that I was depressed when I was 15 but it was never diagnosed so I'm loathe to say I understand depression as I stand with my experiences at the moment.
In yr 9 it was horrible though. I went through this really bad stretch of weeks where everything seemed dull and boring and I found it really hard to get out of bed to go to school every day. My diary from that time period is so horrid to read. When I was at home, I wanted to be at school. When I was at school, I wished I was at home. But then one day I just woke up and everything looked so fresh and colourful and beautiful for the first time in months and I've never experienced that feeling since. But as I said I never saw anyone about it, and I don't know if that would be called depression or just teenage angst or something :/ I had a lot of stuff going on in that year, both at home and at school.
I described how I felt during that time in a poem once as being an ongoing feeling of "Locked up with thoughts/of a good day never to come."
Sounds like it could have been a depressive episode. I don't know. I'm not (yet) a psychiatrist, so I wouldn't rely 100% on my diagnosis, but that could have been it. Sometimes, an episode can be brought on by life circumstances, and then it resolves by itself and you never have to worry about it ever again.
Also as the Dr said those last few months were Vincent's most productive so it is possible that it was his and Amy's intervention that enabled Vincent to hold out for as long as he did.
What dates are you in Melb for. Possible we will find time to hook up?
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As the Doctor said - the good things don't cancel out the bad things. You can have a hundred good things in your life, but if you're depressed, you won't be able to see them or take comfort from them - no matter how often you see them before your very eyes.
The world seems different to a depressed person. The happy things that other people seem to experience seem like a whole other world when you're depressed. People might tell you that you've got plenty to live for, but try as you might, you can't see it. You just...can't. For a depressed person, those happy things might as well not exist.
There's your answer. I hope it made sense.
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Did you like my poem?
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It was interesting. I liked the last verse especially.
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In yr 9 it was horrible though. I went through this really bad stretch of weeks where everything seemed dull and boring and I found it really hard to get out of bed to go to school every day. My diary from that time period is so horrid to read. When I was at home, I wanted to be at school. When I was at school, I wished I was at home. But then one day I just woke up and everything looked so fresh and colourful and beautiful for the first time in months and I've never experienced that feeling since. But as I said I never saw anyone about it, and I don't know if that would be called depression or just teenage angst or something :/ I had a lot of stuff going on in that year, both at home and at school.
I described how I felt during that time in a poem once as being an ongoing feeling of "Locked up with thoughts/of a good day never to come."
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What dates are you in Melb for. Possible we will find time to hook up?
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