remember the time we stole the whole day?

[duudexx]

I really screwed up at the mall today. I bought things I shouldn't have, didn't look for sales, and was impulsive. I realized that I went in there with my mission basically being to spend money. The kicker is is that I didn't even realize that was my mission. So, now, instead of stretching my money and being completely satisfied with all of my purchases I'm looking at my bank account online looking at the amount that I spent (when, let's face it, I'm a broke college student) and regretting a few of my purchases. I really haven't been shopping a lot while I'm at school, so I think my subconscious has been quietly dying to buy something for myself with all of the holiday shopping I've been doing. But I've learned my lesson. I'm avoiding the mall and stores days before Christmas, and I'm limiting the amount of money I'm bring to the mall. It's the only way I'll control myself and be responsible.

I don't know when shopping stopped being fun, though. It's turned into this double-edged sword of me not finding anything I want or anything that is flattering, and me immediately regretting buying something because I used my own money when I have no revenue source to offset it with. I need a job, I need to control myself, I need to be able to like the clothes that I have in my closet.