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do lit hw first NOW DAMNIT GOD I HATE YOUR PROCRASTINATING
ok done and its awesome
anyway
my anxiety is acting up. my parents are fighting-surprise!-about money. i miss care and jo. i like mike a lot. missy and i mope together on the bus and wherever and its good. and then we have fun together. its healthy. i miss kelsey. that rhymes. my cat is so cute.
i hate this stress the grades the money oh god why money why wont my parents companies just like give them raises or something my mom gets like 2034045 awards a week and doesnt get any extra money for it but her bosses get tons. my dad needs to stop whining about me wasting money bc i only waste my OWN occasionally and thats not his problem its not like the family spends a ton on me and you know what i think i pay back pretty well... its not like i was going to send him and mom on a cruise for their 25 annversary or anything like that. ugh. and its such a bother bc people around me have this image like ok dont blow it all away but theres no shortage and no reason not to indulge. knknkjnskmdlkn music is all i have
even my social anxiety is working up god its like a disease. oh wait it IS. a mental illness whatever. i feel so insecure and its not because i have low self confidence its really bc i feel so uncomfortable. whats wrong??? i dont know
i wish kate was home i miss her so much i sleep in her bed and i wish she was here bc even when she is she isnt and i want her to hold me bc i feel safe with her and theres nobody close to hold me and the cat can only do so much
ok done and its awesome
anyway
my anxiety is acting up. my parents are fighting-surprise!-about money. i miss care and jo. i like mike a lot. missy and i mope together on the bus and wherever and its good. and then we have fun together. its healthy. i miss kelsey. that rhymes. my cat is so cute.
i hate this stress the grades the money oh god why money why wont my parents companies just like give them raises or something my mom gets like 2034045 awards a week and doesnt get any extra money for it but her bosses get tons. my dad needs to stop whining about me wasting money bc i only waste my OWN occasionally and thats not his problem its not like the family spends a ton on me and you know what i think i pay back pretty well... its not like i was going to send him and mom on a cruise for their 25 annversary or anything like that. ugh. and its such a bother bc people around me have this image like ok dont blow it all away but theres no shortage and no reason not to indulge. knknkjnskmdlkn music is all i have
even my social anxiety is working up god its like a disease. oh wait it IS. a mental illness whatever. i feel so insecure and its not because i have low self confidence its really bc i feel so uncomfortable. whats wrong??? i dont know
i wish kate was home i miss her so much i sleep in her bed and i wish she was here bc even when she is she isnt and i want her to hold me bc i feel safe with her and theres nobody close to hold me and the cat can only do so much