All on the table here now.

[dusti_phoenix]

I can't apologize. Not for this. I said it eight years ago whenever I began dessilyn in not so many words. I'm not perfect and things I say will offend some people. I don't say the "n" word, I rarely say the "f" word that applies to gays, the "c" word is rare as well. I had few friends then, and I have few friends now. People have come and gone, people

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[xcha0sint0art]

I've been on LJ for nearly seven years. And from day one until now, I've always thought that a journal was a place to go to write down your feelings and ideas about whatever you wanted. And say whatever you wanted to without having to worry about what OTHER PEOPLE think.

This is YOUR space. And to be honest, many of my entries come from the worst of the worst. When I need to rant or curse or freak out. That's what this shit is for and I don't understand people who don't get that.

I think you're amazing and I hope you never, ever try to censor yourself here because, duh, it's a journal. That's why I like coming here to read about your life, because you don't sugarcoat everything and I don't feel like you're some fake bitch fueling the internet with another pile of bullshit. I quite enjoy your insight and views, and even if I didn't, I can at least respect your feelings. <3

[dusti_phoenix]

See, that's where the problem comes in, because we're all different in some ways, and sometimes those things clash, and it being a public journal with people reading, you can get those misconstrued thoughts and feelings over the table without realizing it until it's been said.

Most of it's misinterpretation of words, because words online have different meanings than spoken word. I just know that I got tired of being attacked, but anyone out there lurking for a public post from me might catch wind and put it behind them if need be. It was also a way of getting out some frustration over a conversation I had the other day. Sorted now, of course, but it still needed said to the masses for a variety of reasons.

And awwww I loves you too darlin. And you know I don't believe in sugar coating shit. ;)

[torreadora]

I feel like it'd be self-obsessed to assume this is directed at me, but I think it is. Des, you oughta know by now, just because we don't agree on something doesn't make me like you any less. Sure, I'm not real happy about this one opinion you have about this one thing, but so what? You're still awesome and I love you.

I think the issue is -- as it is for a lot of people, and definitely me -- that you don't like to be confronted on your journal. Like, if I were to say shit that offended someone on THEIR turf, I'd apologize, but if somebody comes into MY journal and attacks an opinion, I'm gonna basically say Fuck off, because I ain't have the patience for that.

This is why Hanson fans get on your shit -- you speak your mind, even when you've got the unpopular opinion. Don't stop standing up for what you think, if you think it's right. Pop always said, You can't please everybody all the time. Pop also said If you're not pissing some people off, you're not doing something right.

[dusti_phoenix]

Girl, I love you even when we butt heads. Some of this was to you, some of it was to the people who have pissed me off in the past and come and just decided to attack me because of what I've said, who I've associated with, what I believe in, etc. Hence why it's public. I deleted some two hundred people from this journal, you know. Hell, even more if you count whenever I moved journals o.O But yes, some of it was directed your way, so no need for self-obsessive worries ;)

And you're right, I don't like to be confronted in my own space. Disagreed with, sure. Backstabbed, fuck naw. Confronted, definitely not. And that's one problem with the internet, is that you never know the exact gravity of a statement. You and I butted heads because of this. My filter is nil even online lol, and generally...it doesn't mean much, but it's likely to piss someone off.

And sometimes I thrive on pissing people off, because I've got the same sort of stance your Pop's got lol. Getting a reaction is better than apathy, even if it's negative.

[ihategohip]

*huggles* *love* Did you ever get that MP3 link to thinking about something, in my journal?

[dusti_phoenix]

Damn skippy, and it now has a nice, comfy place on both mine and Di's phone MP3 players :D

[xslashxloverx]

I know we haven't talked in a long time, and I accept full responibility for that, but you should know by now I adore you for who you are Dessipops- flaws & all. You've not been in all my drama & craziness but 1 time in particular you shined some light into a dark corner of my life. And I'll never forget that. You've been amazingly helpful when you may not have even realized you'd done anything at all. I am all for re-connecting if you're up for it. You know how I feel about you darling. That should be all that matters. <3