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well folks i've officially reached rock bottom. i'm constantly depressed and there is no climbing out of this hole. all i can do is sit back and watch my life fall to pieces. i lost my fiance, love of my life. and now i get to sit and watch her move on like i never existed. tears come and they go. heartache will always be present. will all the hurt i felt and the betrayal shown i still only see good when i watch her pass me by. it was all my fault why we split. she fell out of love. and i smothered her. i keep wishing on stars that one day she would want me back. but its a far off dream that as days and nights passed i'd only get more sad. i try to hold onto some words amber has shared but has been dormant in the back of my mind...if you love the person, love them enough to let them go and find happiness above your own. i have to learn to let go. as hard as it is