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[durtysouthlovin]

i remember,over summer, the days when at like 5 in the afternoon justin would call me to hang out and i'd still be laying in bed under the blankets and with the blinds closed and my black curtain up because i would have such bad cramps and stuff. well today would have been one of those days but instead i go to school feeling fine, except for the fact that i was in one of those "dont touch me, i hate you and everything abot you annoys me" moods. in aerobics i started getting these light cramps and at lunch i was fine, i tryed to help brooks with some of his drama with the mass amouts of girls that like him. then it all went to hell from there. last period i started gettng these killer cramps and they would get worse by the minute. no joke... it got to the point that i couldnt stand up straight, i couldnt write, i couldnt think i couldnt see. then i thought i was gonna throw up so i went to the bathroom and came back to class almost crying and walking funny. i even unbuttoned my pants to see if that would help but no. then we had like 15 minutes of class left but 30-45 minutes till igot home and i just didnt think i could make it. finally class ended and everyone was racing down the hall but i was walking slow and funny and got to brooks locker and i just wanted a hug but i thought it would feel weird and he kept askin me what was wrong but it hurt so bad to even tell him. so we get to his car. and in the back he still has the keg and its covered up with a sleeping bag. i was sitting there like hugging the keg and i couldnt sit still and i was hitting a bottle and bess was crying and i told brooks not to look cause it would just make it worse then bekah called brooks and yeah. then we run into cody and hes a dumbass and knows just how to make a situation worse with bess and brooks. so we finally pull out of the school and brooks turns up the music and everything starts vibrarting and i thought i was gonna throw up all in the sexy car. then they start smokging, then they start smoking something other then cigarettes. and that just threw me over the edge and iwas like screaming. so we all get to my house and brooks and chad and i all sat down and talking about the cruise and blah blah blah. so my mom was in the kitchen looking at brooks arm informing him he needs to get to the doctor right away and she goes "you look high, u look so spaced out" i said mom just leave him alone and chad is in my living room laughing his ass off cause they were high. it was funny. so i tryed to tape his arm back up but i was shaking so bad i couldnt even hold the tape. they end up leaving and i took some meds and felt 110% better and took a nap and just layed in bed. i feel better now just alittle pain. but damn i think i was really close to death today. i felt like death. if u ever want a girl to die suffering , just pray they have the cramps i had today. i dont think they've ever been this bad. it was all in my lower back too. so since i cant stay home tomororw cause of 3 tests i'm goin to school prepared with a heating pad and extra meds. just alitlle mental picture...u know on 'i want a famous face' wtih the girl who wants to be pam anderson is sitting in the car screaming from pain...that was me today.anyways...
**a few more things**
-Anna Huskey wants to go to western also and i was thinkin if we both get in then we can room together, it would be 10 times better then rooming with some random person.
-robert tryed to talk to me today but i just kept telling him to go away and stuff. i'm proud of myself for doing that
-megan better not break brooks' heart
-i wish i had senior clothes so i could wear the pants tomrrow since i have no clean clothes and i wanna be comfy
-i'm goin to sleep