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[duringthetest]

im much too tired to scold you hate you beat you harrass you. not tonight. i have fever. so physically, im sick and tired of berating myself and you. i'd really love to type and say bitch bitch bitch four million times, curse for you to have a more wrongful dealth and fate than jesus christ himself, elaborate on your irresponsibility and my dissappointment, speak of my heart ache for the wrong i feel, complain about my helpelssness for the friends of yours i cannot reach. but i am tired for now, and i'd love to sleep. my combustion just now came from the volcanic erruption and it had smoke effect that was mushroom like. ever watched the youtube video with the indian man being harrassed saying bastard? thats how i am cursing bastard under my breath now. B for bastard. bastard bastaard bastard. bitch bitch bitch. curse curse curse. hate hate hate. anger anger anger. pisssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss. shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhiat.

this
makes me that much stronger, makes me work a little bit harder, makes me that much wiser. made me a little bit faster, made my skin a little bit thicker, made me that much smarter. so thnaks for making me fighter.