Well Well Well
Well just finishing up with my doctor today and hey says I need to take it easy or I could really hurt myself in the long run. I asked him what that meant and he says that if I keep straining mind and body as I have been doing I will have a nervous break down and probably wont live to see 25 well as scary as that sounded I told him I couldn't do that because there are more people that need my help, the he just flashed me a disapointing look and told me to to be careful and that he doesn't want to see me in his office again unless its on good terms which I hope it will be the next time. I tell ya life is strange and as far as I go I only know one thing, I live for others before I live for myself I know its insane but its the only thing that I feel I have a purpose for and untill I find other-wise I will continue to bend over backwards for those I love so I guess in a manner of speaking the love hasn't left me completely I guess I can say its leaveing me slowly but it is being passed on to other people and I would rather share that love and affection that see it wasted so at least I can do some good before its over and even if it kills me I will see that everyone is happy and realizing their dreams before I go so with that in mind I say this. I take everyones hell onto myself and strip you all of your pain so you can be happy not feel unloved or unwanted. I take your pain and bare your burden only to uplift you so all of your wories are washed away because everyone deserves to smile and be joyful and all that I ask is that I get to see the smiles on each and every one of the faces of those I love so dear.