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[dunruin]

I've been trying to sleep.
Thoughts keep running through my mind.
well... one thought at least.
I seem to be attracted to people I can never have.
It's like I want the pain of rejection.
but underneath it all..
I keep running it through my mind.
even though I wanted it to be perfect, I still treasure it.
it was like a taste of wine, or a perfect scotch.
Something I want more of.

I do not know if it was a smart thing to do...
but I did it and on some level I feel better.
but I did it...
what am I saying?
I am making a mountain over a mole hill...

regardless...
I will treasure the memory.
the feeling...

If I could do it all over again,
I would make it last a thousand years.

I'm done.
I am...
done.
at peace.
at last.
sort of.

heh.