Recent developments in the attack of the Ladies of Legion by a drunk bastard
Monday at war I got drunk... which is odd, because I had like 3 beers ALL DAY. I remember getting depressed and going to bed. That's it. That is all I remember.
So the next day I found out that I accosted a group of my house sisters. I try to make jokes about it saying that if I'm going to go groping, I'd at least like to remember it. Still, it mortified me to find out that I done all this. I was ticked off all week. At myself more than anything.
Then when I got home, I was threatened by the lord of one of the ladies that I accosted. I deserved it, but still it hurt me. I immediately began kicking myself even harder. I considered quitting the SCA. I mailed the house list and posted that I’d possibly be quitting the SCA. IT hurt me THAT BAD that I had done something like this.
But since then, I have been receiving several emails, on list and off; and while it's good to hear that most of the ladies forgive me, I wish I could get an anonymous email from all the ladies saying that they forgive me. The reason that I say anonymous is that if I knew WHO I accosted, it would make me feel even worse, and then I'd get all jumpy and funny in their presence. I don’t want that and I'm sure that THEY don’t want that. Nothing can ruin a friendship worse than knowing that you done something like this and not being able to forgive yourself... As it is, I'm not sure when I'll feel comfortable going to an event for a while.
Those who have helped me lift my spirits and forget about my pain for even just a few moments are of more value to me right now than anything I can mention. I have one house brother who's music, for some reason, has a soothing effect on me. He's even sending me some recordings... for such an act of kindness, I'll be forever in his debt.
Yours in service,
Dufgall Breastingr Vinaldasson
Dufgall the Interrupter
Dufgall the GoofBall
and for now, Legion's Depressed Little Goof-up
So the next day I found out that I accosted a group of my house sisters. I try to make jokes about it saying that if I'm going to go groping, I'd at least like to remember it. Still, it mortified me to find out that I done all this. I was ticked off all week. At myself more than anything.
Then when I got home, I was threatened by the lord of one of the ladies that I accosted. I deserved it, but still it hurt me. I immediately began kicking myself even harder. I considered quitting the SCA. I mailed the house list and posted that I’d possibly be quitting the SCA. IT hurt me THAT BAD that I had done something like this.
But since then, I have been receiving several emails, on list and off; and while it's good to hear that most of the ladies forgive me, I wish I could get an anonymous email from all the ladies saying that they forgive me. The reason that I say anonymous is that if I knew WHO I accosted, it would make me feel even worse, and then I'd get all jumpy and funny in their presence. I don’t want that and I'm sure that THEY don’t want that. Nothing can ruin a friendship worse than knowing that you done something like this and not being able to forgive yourself... As it is, I'm not sure when I'll feel comfortable going to an event for a while.
Those who have helped me lift my spirits and forget about my pain for even just a few moments are of more value to me right now than anything I can mention. I have one house brother who's music, for some reason, has a soothing effect on me. He's even sending me some recordings... for such an act of kindness, I'll be forever in his debt.
Yours in service,
Dufgall Breastingr Vinaldasson
Dufgall the Interrupter
Dufgall the GoofBall
and for now, Legion's Depressed Little Goof-up