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I am in such a shitty mood lately.. i dunno why.. i think i need some days off to lock myself in my room and turn my phone off, and not talk to anyone. after that i need a vacation filled with fun things and family, and love and hugs and smiles.
there's this girl at work who makes me so fucking angry that i can't stand to be around her, but i know that if i quit being around her that it will make her cause problems for me at work.. more than she already has, and i am trying to take on more responsibility there, so i need the least problems. this puts me in a dilemma, do i suck it up and act nice, and secretly want to punch her for acting like a child, or do i just tell her what's up and hope she doesn't fuck me over, or do i pull away from her, knowing she is going to fuck me over, and wait for it to happen, yet again... it's bullshit, and it's trying, and i really have better things to be worried about. between work, school, and trying to have somewhat of a life outside of those two places i am kind of spent.
school's almost over, which is nice.. which means i can pick up another day at work, and even have a day off, which is cool. but i need to work as much as possible to pay bills and hopefully buy a car someday. and buy myself health insurance and all kinds of other shit.. it's always spent before it's made i feel. part of me wants to take only 2 classes next semester, and part of me wants to take 6 to get out of school faster.. I am sure i will only take 2... but it seems like school is going to last forever that way, unless i start going to summer school which wouldn't be that bad. I seem to always feel this way the last month of the semester, which makes me think the semester should be one month shorter with longer breaks in between that would be nice.
at any rate.. it's homework time..
hope you're all doing well.
there's this girl at work who makes me so fucking angry that i can't stand to be around her, but i know that if i quit being around her that it will make her cause problems for me at work.. more than she already has, and i am trying to take on more responsibility there, so i need the least problems. this puts me in a dilemma, do i suck it up and act nice, and secretly want to punch her for acting like a child, or do i just tell her what's up and hope she doesn't fuck me over, or do i pull away from her, knowing she is going to fuck me over, and wait for it to happen, yet again... it's bullshit, and it's trying, and i really have better things to be worried about. between work, school, and trying to have somewhat of a life outside of those two places i am kind of spent.
school's almost over, which is nice.. which means i can pick up another day at work, and even have a day off, which is cool. but i need to work as much as possible to pay bills and hopefully buy a car someday. and buy myself health insurance and all kinds of other shit.. it's always spent before it's made i feel. part of me wants to take only 2 classes next semester, and part of me wants to take 6 to get out of school faster.. I am sure i will only take 2... but it seems like school is going to last forever that way, unless i start going to summer school which wouldn't be that bad. I seem to always feel this way the last month of the semester, which makes me think the semester should be one month shorter with longer breaks in between that would be nice.
at any rate.. it's homework time..
hope you're all doing well.