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sooo... here I am procrastinating again...
can you go through a mid life crisis when you are only 25??
hmmm... maybe I am just going senile early... can you do that?
I am finding myself in the midst of responsibility and I just want to run...
maybe I am reverting back to childhood...
or maybe I am just confused...
that is probably more like it...
I have learned a lot about myself this semester... which is good...
there are times though, like right now that I am talking to myself saying... do i really want to go into counseling? it is such a big responsibility... I still really feel inadequate...
and I wonder if I can handle the pressure... and people do cause pressure... they come to you saying ok, fix me... I can't even begin to do that... and even more likely is people coming in saying, ok, fix everyone else so they are ok with me... which is totally not even possible...
*sigh* I am probably reacting to being very tired...
I just want my husband... so i can hug him, he can hug me, and I can feel like everything is ok...
(gee... that kind of makes him sound like a glorified teddy bear! no... he is very much better than a teddy bear!! *sigh* is it too sappy to miss him when he is just at work for 9-10 hours a day? hmmm... although with both of us working ti seems like I see him less... well, sappy or no... I do miss him... hence partly why i wish he was here to hug me...)
anyway...
I should probably attempt to be productive... :P
can you go through a mid life crisis when you are only 25??
hmmm... maybe I am just going senile early... can you do that?
I am finding myself in the midst of responsibility and I just want to run...
maybe I am reverting back to childhood...
or maybe I am just confused...
that is probably more like it...
I have learned a lot about myself this semester... which is good...
there are times though, like right now that I am talking to myself saying... do i really want to go into counseling? it is such a big responsibility... I still really feel inadequate...
and I wonder if I can handle the pressure... and people do cause pressure... they come to you saying ok, fix me... I can't even begin to do that... and even more likely is people coming in saying, ok, fix everyone else so they are ok with me... which is totally not even possible...
*sigh* I am probably reacting to being very tired...
I just want my husband... so i can hug him, he can hug me, and I can feel like everything is ok...
(gee... that kind of makes him sound like a glorified teddy bear! no... he is very much better than a teddy bear!! *sigh* is it too sappy to miss him when he is just at work for 9-10 hours a day? hmmm... although with both of us working ti seems like I see him less... well, sappy or no... I do miss him... hence partly why i wish he was here to hug me...)
anyway...
I should probably attempt to be productive... :P