WTF!?
So, I had a migraine yesterday. I took some Tylenol and it certainly numbed the pain, but I could still FEEL the migraine there. Migraines aren't just really really bad headaches for me, it's a sensation.
So Gurleen went to the hospital for stomach pains, which can suck, but honestly, I mean, the way she described it, it was obvious that it wasn't something like appendicitis, and from the sounds of it, I would've just sat on the toliet for an hour to see what would happen if I were her, but no... she went to the hospital... Rachel went out to study for her physics midterm... and I decided to take an Imitrex, and finish reading Freud's case study of Dora.
About 15 minutes later, I started getting some of the symptoms I associate with Imitrex, the feeling like my entire body was just an emense bag of wet sand, the locking up of my facial muscles, the odd pulsating sensations... but it was worse this time... everything was much more severe feeling.
And my heart, it felt like it weighed like 60 pounds, when I lay on my back I could actually feel it pushing down, like an enormous weight. I could also feel my heart racing, then suddenly it would feel like everything had stopped and my limbs would go numb. AND I smelt roses... which is just fucked up.
I was so scared that something really bad was happening, but I was all alone and virtually paralyzed in my bed, I couldn't move... so I just lay there and cried, hoping it would all end soon.
Next thing I know, I'm lying in bed feeling, relatively better. Imitrex is sometimes almost worse than the migraine, but the side effects go away after about 30 minutes to an hour... and with them, the migraine, nothing else does that.
I get up, and oddly the door to the office is closed, I open it and there's Gurleen, sitting at her desk, she sees me and asks how I am, and I'm just like "Fine... I mean, how are you? When did you get back!?" And she just looks at me and says "You're scaring me." I'm just like "WTF?"
APPARENTLY I had talked to her when she came in, had like a conversation with her, she said I looked really spacey, but didn't think much of it... then apparently Rachel came back for a minute and I talked to her too... then she left again... And a while later I had walked into the office, looking like I was crying and Gurleen had asked me if I was okay and I had responded "I... I don't know what's happening right now. I need to brush my hair." And I walked out brushing my hair.
WTF!? It's like, the last six or seven times that I've taken Imitrex, the side effects have just gotten worse and worse. It was nearly unbearable last night, but I mean, it's the only thing that gets rid of the migraine. Other pain pills mask it, but it doesn't go away and I know it's still there, and if I don't get rid of the migraine, it can sometimes just go away over night, or get so much worse I'm throwing up because of the pain.
My mum said she'll take me to get a prescription change when I go home again, but I mean, what do I do if I get one before then?
Blargh.
And this morning, my whole body feels like it was beaten up, everything feels weak and drained. I'm actually a little nervous still.
So Gurleen went to the hospital for stomach pains, which can suck, but honestly, I mean, the way she described it, it was obvious that it wasn't something like appendicitis, and from the sounds of it, I would've just sat on the toliet for an hour to see what would happen if I were her, but no... she went to the hospital... Rachel went out to study for her physics midterm... and I decided to take an Imitrex, and finish reading Freud's case study of Dora.
About 15 minutes later, I started getting some of the symptoms I associate with Imitrex, the feeling like my entire body was just an emense bag of wet sand, the locking up of my facial muscles, the odd pulsating sensations... but it was worse this time... everything was much more severe feeling.
And my heart, it felt like it weighed like 60 pounds, when I lay on my back I could actually feel it pushing down, like an enormous weight. I could also feel my heart racing, then suddenly it would feel like everything had stopped and my limbs would go numb. AND I smelt roses... which is just fucked up.
I was so scared that something really bad was happening, but I was all alone and virtually paralyzed in my bed, I couldn't move... so I just lay there and cried, hoping it would all end soon.
Next thing I know, I'm lying in bed feeling, relatively better. Imitrex is sometimes almost worse than the migraine, but the side effects go away after about 30 minutes to an hour... and with them, the migraine, nothing else does that.
I get up, and oddly the door to the office is closed, I open it and there's Gurleen, sitting at her desk, she sees me and asks how I am, and I'm just like "Fine... I mean, how are you? When did you get back!?" And she just looks at me and says "You're scaring me." I'm just like "WTF?"
APPARENTLY I had talked to her when she came in, had like a conversation with her, she said I looked really spacey, but didn't think much of it... then apparently Rachel came back for a minute and I talked to her too... then she left again... And a while later I had walked into the office, looking like I was crying and Gurleen had asked me if I was okay and I had responded "I... I don't know what's happening right now. I need to brush my hair." And I walked out brushing my hair.
WTF!? It's like, the last six or seven times that I've taken Imitrex, the side effects have just gotten worse and worse. It was nearly unbearable last night, but I mean, it's the only thing that gets rid of the migraine. Other pain pills mask it, but it doesn't go away and I know it's still there, and if I don't get rid of the migraine, it can sometimes just go away over night, or get so much worse I'm throwing up because of the pain.
My mum said she'll take me to get a prescription change when I go home again, but I mean, what do I do if I get one before then?
Blargh.
And this morning, my whole body feels like it was beaten up, everything feels weak and drained. I'm actually a little nervous still.