Its all fo fucking hillarious
My mothers Ill. Her heart rate is erratic and she has lots of pain in her left hand. She really worried me. Shes at the hospatal right now. Wish I were more religous. But I know from experance that that dosent work. God helps thouse who help themselves. theres no handouts in life. Well thats not true but their few and far between. Mom made sure that I have all her insurance folders ordered out. She told me that If she dies I should sell the house and then go live with my Aunt Vita as i dont come in conflict with Gorge as he put a bit of money on the house. She told me not to let my father fuck up my financing. Oh about that my dad claimed me as a depended this year even though I was living with my mom. she was really really pissed. She thinks shes going to die. She told me to cremate her because that was cheaper. I really dont know what Im supposed to do with that. I guess If my mom did die at this juncture Id have to put a hold on school. Or take alot less classes. Get a good job. Set me and brother up with a place to live. Use moms life insurance polcies to pay for michaels operation so he can breather through his nose again. She put off her go to the hospatal till mothers day late tonight. she wanted to go to church but I slept in. I didnt even get her a card. i think I was a bit upset because she kept butting the vist off. I can understand the need to do that fearing ones mortality and all. It would be rather hetic I suppose if that happened. She was supposed to go in the beggging of the week but she put it off becuase of her patients. then she didnt want to go friday and saturaday she said she wanted to stay to enjoy mothers day. Hell of a world. So on mothers day my mom is in the bloddy hospital. Perhaps being operated on. Heh. now what. It seems to me some people get the good draw of the deck. My hand aint so good. And I cant bluff. I think what pisses me off the most is that well Im still quite dependent on my mother. Dear mom you babied me. You dont get to pick to grow up. Lots of people are children few are adults really ones. Im a kid. ill be one for a bit longer I think. I wanted to be one alot longer. But life wont let me. I dont think Im gona sleep tonight. My brothes a minor still heh his birthadays in 5 days. Theres no presents for him. Heh I wish christmas and birthdays still had magic for me but they dont. My dear mother tried to make christmas joyful. Cute laughable attempts sweet. Close but no cigar. Shampoo does not make the best stoking stufer. Well Im 19. this Octoper I'll be 20. 20 that just seems odd. Like it was westeday when I was a dorky 12 year old messing around at PPF pretending to be a druid. 20 thats an adult number. I have to start acting like one. People say Im mature but I dont really think I am. Oh apparently one fine day I leared that I had a "sister" in the makeing she died In my moms womb. complacations. My brother told me. Aparently one time when my mom was praying she mentioned it. Complacations. Seems all I have to deal with is complacations. Eh maybe itl be ok. And my mother will be fine. I really hope so. Eh I stare at what I typed and I see a mango. Dont question me ok I see a mango. I ate one today. Half of it fell on the carpet after I peeled it and got shit all over it. I ate the top half. Soemthing about mangos I like alot soft sweet. Something about the smell. I really dont know where I was going with that. If my father tries to take cusdody of micael that would be bad. My father dosent live a life though he lives death. I wonder why he wants do deny his own children. Well hell get his comeupins. Now that I think about it he punish's himself with his life choices. MY father has good qualities of how he aproaces people I think friendly reserved respectful of their points of view to their face at least. But he is really just off. Way off. Player wins place bets now...... Dammet.Eh maybe I can ask my father for help finacially..No that would be total bull. Right now my mother and by extention me and my brother live of loans from my uncle mike who my mom was trying to start a businees with. I think its gona fail. Which is horrid because my mom devoted so much wortk into it. Eh maybe my cynical thoughts will be wrong and that will work out too. The company that I got involved in denied my motehr insurance becuae of her poor medical condition. So fuck them. I cant really see how they expect me to peddle their wares. ill finish their state exam and get licensed. But jesus.I fucked up this simester in statictics. I didnt really put any work in. i dont care for math so much so I got poopie. Lost bright futures for next simester. If I use the forgivness plicy and retake the class I can get it back Im thinking.Dam it all to hell their just grades. Dosent realy "mean" anything. Mom was upset and rightfully soo. Ow its 5 already. Better end this here. Theres cat shit that has to be gathered and other things.
Oh Id like to see X-men 3 when that comes out should be fun. Anyone have plans for that. Is that the 20th. My brothers birthday. He has an odd obsession with Char Hut cheese fries. Ill try to get him some I guess.
Oh Id like to see X-men 3 when that comes out should be fun. Anyone have plans for that. Is that the 20th. My brothers birthday. He has an odd obsession with Char Hut cheese fries. Ill try to get him some I guess.