Eh...
Im really blowing at the whole socializeing thing at FIU. 2nd semester done and only a few aquatiances.Its cuz I live at home and I still hang out with my gamer friends so Theres no nessisity to get involved with human contact on the university.I suck.Also WoW is a bad thing.Man..I gota start useing live journal and all the other online crap.Monkeys. I dont know why. Well I suppose there is no reason for me to well inatiate contact to much. Id have to orcastarate it. Also why the hell do I halways have to make first contact? Couldnt somone else pick up the slack? The answer is no. One cant wait for life to happen one must make it. Perhaps I should advertise myself. Loiter around campus look for soemthing intresting. Look into clubs. Sad rejection is rather tart. Ive had a good bit of that. Also from observations my apperance evokes the devil in people. Why? I dono Im an easy mark. Example Im at a bar. I order cheese fries as I have a weakness for them. 3 black girl who imo are rather attractive but Im not really paying attention to are tehre as well. Two of them walk up to me and in an obvious attempt to either get a rise outa me and their friend aproach me and with a giggle snort say akwardly that their friend likes me. I look at em. Their tryign to what I really don't know? Either way I wink say that thats sweet but Im spoken for . Now dont you say that they were genuine becasue I know what that looks like and I know a shit eating grin. Simalar things have happend as well. Also Im walking home two rednecks in a truck stop in their truck and say to me fuck you fagot!! Now what the hell is that? Where did that come from? Oh these events happend many years apart Actually rather long time. Eh fuck it next time if soemthing like that happens Ill write my number on a napkin and french the girl and walk out. Eh prolly not I dont got the clout for that. Wish I did. Not my style. Not to mention the violence that may happen. Also I realize at my juncture its rather tiedious and depressing really chaseing the opposite sex not to mention fiscally not possable. Blah Blah Blah. Oh I need to watch all the horrid fem fatal movies that came out and I missed. Blood Rayne,Underworld 2 ,Code Violet, Aeon Flux...what am I missing...I need a job a realy shitty 9-5 job for some scratch. People need to talk and need fodder to talk abut therun is so much mroe sweeter when there is something to run from. Eh Ive been spoiled is all Ive been surounded by good people for a ling time and I really didnt have to look far to find some real gems. No Im in a sea of well shit and not just shit shit thats very very stupid or shallow. Theres some gems in there im sure butI don't wana look to hard. To lazy or scared to dig. Complacent action leads to death of oneself. I think I wana gamble. wheres the nearest place that I can waste 20$ bucks placeing a bet on a cum line? Heh inside joke. Sorry for my bad spelling. Forsyth is right I must have something wrong with me. I like spellign certain words wrong because they look right to me. I like adding letters.