Just for a moment.......
So I sit at my brothers computer while he sleeps for another hard day at school while I do nothing constructive. Ive been feeling useless lately I just realize how much school had defined me and realize that all my friends are going off and I may never see them again. Daunting. I cleaned out my car because of this which took longer than it should went to the library and got The Time Machine which I finished tonight a book on Napoleon and Confusious The Dragon Riders of Pern Douglas Adams Completed works as well as a random stephen king novel. I need to do something I see that is marginally passable as useful or I will go mad. I also looked up the song in that really sweet Chase credit card commercial and its 100 years by Fighting by Five. I love this song more than I should. Its soft sweet and makes me think if the future. I get sad and happy when I listen to it.Combined with watching way to much Daria it makes me think. The future is daunting. I need to not be a degenerate leech anymore. Heh yet there is something stoping me. I was never good at takeing initiative unless Im playing an elf with a 22 dex and Improved Initiative. And thats what I must resort to gamer retort. Still Im looking forward to everything. Hell only got a 100 years to live better spend it well....Actually considering that I may want to die before that...oh well.