Title: Yearn
Type: Het (contrary to popular opinion, I can write it)
Genre: Angst
Pairing: Theodore Nott/Hermione
Other Pairings: Hermione/Ron, Hermione/Krum, Hermione/McLaggen, Draco/Pansy, Blaise/Anything Female and Alive, Theo/Millicent
Rating: PG/PG-13
Word Count: 617
Summary: Friends and feelings can be dangerous
Disclaimer: Not mine; JKR's.
A/N: Written for
minor_pairings.
Feedback: Is Love.
1. Hero
He’s in the library and he sees her again - a pile of books, bushy brown hair… hard to mistake her for anyone else. Maybe she’s a Mudblood bint, but she’s got great legs. Even Blaise thinks so, though he only admitted it when he got trashed out of his mind at one of Pansy’s “soirees.”
They could make a really tragic love story, her and Theo… or, at least, he thinks so. Brilliant, beautiful, probably involving one or more deaths… Tristan and Isolde, since every lover from Hogwarts to Ho Chi Minh City has used Romeo and Juliet at some point. It’s probably more accurate in this case, but no. Theo doesn’t work in those conditions.
Although she’s not the loveliest girl, her brains would serve just fine for her role as Heroine, and his weedy look would work itself out.
But then the Weasley trash shows up and Theo remembers: “Hero” is not in the Slytherin job description.
2. Trample
Draco, being the mum’s boy to end all mum’s boys, would never understand. He could never even hope to, not that he does or would. So Theo turns to Blaise.
But Blaise is nothing if not a highly selective tramp. Just getting to talk to him needs an appointment anymore or you’re likely to find him preoccupied with some slut. And, even if he’s not so distracted, it feels like he’s hardly listening. He doesn’t have to, of course, and Slytherins rarely have real friends, but Theo’s eyes have been claimed by a Mudblood and his mind followed suit.
Even worse - every time he tries to deal with it himself, he’s forced onto his back by an intangible, but massive, weight. It holds him down, stomps on his chest, and always leaves him lying, barely able to breathe because his lungs are broken.
Every shuddering breath makes him think of her.
3. Christmas
Red and green clash. They mesh about as well as Snape and a Christmas party.
Still and all, he keeps wondering what she’d look like in green. She looked nice in blue back in fourth year, when he took one of Blaise’s leftovers to the Yule Ball, and their school robes and uniforms don’t have enough color to judge by.
Maybe she’d make the poison earthy - brown hair, brown eyes, and what not.
But red wouldn’t look good on him. He hasn’t the strength (in body or character) or the passion to wear it properly.
Red hardly looks good on her and she’s a bloody Gryffindor. First was Krum, and maybe he wasn’t red, but he wore enough of it and she wore him like a charm bracelet. Then it was that McLaggen bastard, but that didn’t last so it hardly counts. Now, it’s that Weasley filth, who certainly took his damn time coming around, didn’t even know she was a girl ‘til fourth year…
“She’s not much better,” Blaise retorts casually. “After all, she doesn’t know you exist.”
…It’s true. Theo knows it and bites his lip to keep from saying anything or dwelling on it.
“Now Greengrass or Bulstrode…”
Blaise cocks his head over in the direction of Pansy’s corner of the Common Room. As usual, Draco is sitting below her chair, letting her fuss over him like his mum does. Daphne and Millicent are sharing the footstool and a pack of Drooble’s. Theo hadn’t noticed until now, but neither of them are awful to look at; they’re kind of pretty, actually.
“Ask one of them out for Hogsmeade. It can’t hurt.”
Theo swallows hard and his feet are taking him over before he can stop them, and, amidst giggles and one of Pansy’s weird looks, he thinks he hears himself say, “Excuse me, Millicent?”
My Favorite Mess: A Theo/Hermione Fanmix
* All files are YSI and MP3.
* Give me a nod if you need new downloads/take anything/whatever.
1. Bad Day - Daniel Powter You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces every time
And I don't need no carryin' on
Cause you had a bad day
You're taken one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
2. Teenage Dirtbag - Wheatus Oh how she rocks
In Keds and tube socks
But she doesn't know who I am
And she doesn't give a damn about me
Cause I'm just a teenage dirtbag baby
Yeah I'm just a teenage dirtbag baby
Listen to Iron Maiden baby with me
Ooohoooooo
Her boyfriend's a dick
3. Everybody Knows - Leonard Cohen And everybody knows that it’s now or never
Everybody knows that it’s me or you
And everybody knows that you live forever
Ah when you’ve done a line or two
Everybody knows the deal is rotten
Old black Joes still pickin’ cotton
For your ribbons and bows
And everybody knows
4. Exit Music (for a film) (strings) - Radiohead 5. Boys Don’t Cry - The Cure I would tell you
That I loved you
If I thought that you would stay
But I know that it's no use
That you've already
Gone away
Misjudged your limits
Pushed you too far
Took you for granted
I thought that you needed me more
6. Just For A Moment - Aqualung The same thing that blew us together
Might blow us apart
So keep a piece of me precious
And close to your heart
Just for a moment
All of my nightmares came true
Just for a moment
My heart was broken in two
7. The Only Difference Between Martyrdom and Suicide is Press Coverage - Panic! At the Disco Swear to shake it up if you swear to listen
We're still so young, desperate for attention
I aim to be your eyes
Trophy boys, Trophy wives
Applause! Applause! No, wait wait...
Dear studio audience,
I have an announcement to make.
It seems the artists these days are not who you think.
So we'll pick back up on that on another page.
8. And I Love Her (strings) - The Beatles 9. Pure Imagination - Maroon 5 There is no
Life I know
To compare with
Pure imagination
Living there
You'll be free
If you truly wish to be
10. Complainte De La Butte - Rufus Wainwright La lune trop bleme pose un diademe sur tes cheveux roux
La lune trop rousse de gloire eclabousse ton jupon plein d'trous
La lune trop pale caresse l'opale de tes yeux blases
Princesse de la rue soit la bienvenue dans mon coeur brise
The stairways up to la butte
Can make the wretched sigh
While windmill wings of the Moulin
Shelter you and I
Translation: The moon, all too fair, in your russet-red hair sets a sparkling crown
The moon, all too red with glory, is spread on your poor, tattered gown
The moon, all too white, caresses the light in your world-weary eyes
Princess of the street, do allow me to greet you, my broken heart cries
11. I Guess It Doesn’t Matter Anymore - Blackmore’s Night I pulled along the side
And offered her a ride
Like the rolling mist she floated inside
As we pulled away
She had nothing to say
So I guess it doesn’t matter anymore
.zip file of all songs + cover art