my new obsession= tennis
yesterday evening i went over my auntie paulas house.
we ate dinner then we went for a walk.
we walked 4.8 miles and it felt sooo damn good.
we talked a lot and it was really nice.
today i hung out with jackie all day.
i went with her to get her nose pierced then me jackie and my brother went to eat at pepperoni grille.
a little after my aunt got home from work we went and played tennis for a few hours.
it was soooo much fun. i loved it.
then i came home and talked to joe and he ruined my night once again.
i love that kid to death but i dont even feel like were together anymore.
i have been trying soooo hard to make things better and you can only try so hard until everything fails.
i hate feeling unhappy and angry everyday.
i want to wake up everyday and know that i have someone that loves me and wants me unconditionally.
i want to feel like i have that special someone to go to whenever i need them.
i want to be with someone who cares and puts effort in and works on the relationship.
i want to be 100% happy.
but i guess you dont always get what you want.
ahhhhhh i hate this.