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dryadisvesperi

Just some random thoughts from an utterly sleep-deprived man...

Apr 16, 2002 03:22

You know today has been kind of strange. I woke up at about noonish, and sat down in front of my TV (the big one down in our living room) and watched Zoolander and Willow whilst eating pretzels and dip- and drinking Dr. Pepper. I must admit, I haven't truly just sat and vegged-out and not cared about anything around me for quite some time...It ( Read more... )

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just a quick thing... anonymous April 16 2002, 10:26:16 UTC

i wish i could talk to you in person,because this seems the type of news that should be shared in person.i may shortly be going to the hospital.the doctor found out that i have cysts,and she is advising a complete hysterectomy.i have never been so scared of anything in my life.and to think that my chance to have a child that lived would be taken away by a genetic disorder...i wish you could be here with me right now.as for my dreams,they're haunted by views of unborn children in jars for some reason,and it's terrifying.i will try to keep you posted,but i need you to think about something honestly...would anything change about your love for me if i were not able to have kids with you?i hope that this is an irrational fear of mine,but i need your absolute,honest opinion.with tears of rage for my body having betrayed me,and tears of love for missing you,i say goodbye for now.

Re: just a quick thing... dryadisvesperi April 17 2002, 00:54:02 UTC

I honestly don't know what to think...this hit me quite unexpectedly, and I am unsure what I would feel in the future. I guess for now I'd have to say-- I hope things go well at the doctor and nothing comes of it. To be honest I'm completely dumbfounded with this. I have never loved anyone so much, yet I don't know what I would feel when I'd have to face he facts later in life. I guess we'll have to figure something out- and see where it goes. Nothing is certain in life- I'm swimming in thought right now...I'm sorry but I just don't know what to think, so lets just leave it at 'let's hope that everything ends up just nothing- and you are fine'. I love ya-

I get lost in your love- but your love also makes me lost sometimes.

good news! anonymous April 17 2002, 10:16:05 UTC

okay,about this whole big thing with the hysterectomy..I passed out yesterday,and spent the entire afternoon throwing up.i called my doctor,and talked to her about it,and then i saw her today.it turns out that after a second opinion,she has decided that it would not require surgery,but that i instead can have the cysts removed although there would be some pain incured with getting them removed,if i get them done soon,she said that i will be able to have a completely normal pregnancy,carrying it to full term and everything.i did not know prior to last night that it was a genetic thing,and that was partly what had me so freaked out.i was incredibly relieved to find out that they were not cancerous as she had first thought.and i can have kids in the future,if i get them removed,which is unbelieveably reassuring to me,to know that i will be able to bear my own children.so,now that i know i will not be in the hospital within a week,i wanted to let you know.as i take a deep breath,i shudder to think how close i was to having to have this ( ... )