A few things that need to get said...
I know I said I would not be updating this more this week, but I fibbed I guess, things have come up and I needed to make an entry to clear my thoughts or at least let things be put down in writing.
First of all- Bad Religion, Less than Jake, and Hot Water Music frickin' ruled!!! That was one of the most incredible concerts I've ever went to, and I even finally got body-passed. I have never gotten up on top the crowd because no one ever will lift me up, but I have now broken my crowd-surfing virginity. The only problem is that I bled from my ear- strange and sick sounding to anyone uninformed- but I was kicked in the ear by another person being body passed while in the mosh pit- and not only lost a ball on one of my earrings, but also ripped at my earring enough to make one bleed bad, I'm just glad they weren't pulled out! Anyway- I'll heal- it was worth it.
Second- this is really what I NEEDED to say tonight here in an entry...
I don't know if you still read this sweetie, but I miss you. I have been thinking a lot about you lately, I don't know why, but lately you have been in my head almost constant, it almost is like when we were together. It is a very good feeling, and I am glad you are in my head. I don't know what time will tell, but I know that at least for now- you are in a part of my heart that only you have been to. I keep a piece of your love locked up inside me, and it keeps me warm in even the bitterest of times.
As much as I could be angry at you for the crap that went on, and what almost happened, I am not mad at all. My feelings for you still have not changed, they may have faded for a while out of my sight, but they are back- and I am happy they are. I am once again wearing the ring, and it means so much to me now that I do. I don't know how you feel about me, but if I guess from my heart, I know you love me still. I just wish I could see you smile.
From the moment I met you, I knew deep down that something good would come of it. I was right. Even with all the things that your dad has taken away from you, and us... he still has failed. Even with all the things he tried to take away from me or that he may take in the future, I still love, and am in love, with you; and THAT is something he can NEVER take away from me.
tears fall, reminiscing of us together
I Love you.
First of all- Bad Religion, Less than Jake, and Hot Water Music frickin' ruled!!! That was one of the most incredible concerts I've ever went to, and I even finally got body-passed. I have never gotten up on top the crowd because no one ever will lift me up, but I have now broken my crowd-surfing virginity. The only problem is that I bled from my ear- strange and sick sounding to anyone uninformed- but I was kicked in the ear by another person being body passed while in the mosh pit- and not only lost a ball on one of my earrings, but also ripped at my earring enough to make one bleed bad, I'm just glad they weren't pulled out! Anyway- I'll heal- it was worth it.
Second- this is really what I NEEDED to say tonight here in an entry...
I don't know if you still read this sweetie, but I miss you. I have been thinking a lot about you lately, I don't know why, but lately you have been in my head almost constant, it almost is like when we were together. It is a very good feeling, and I am glad you are in my head. I don't know what time will tell, but I know that at least for now- you are in a part of my heart that only you have been to. I keep a piece of your love locked up inside me, and it keeps me warm in even the bitterest of times.
As much as I could be angry at you for the crap that went on, and what almost happened, I am not mad at all. My feelings for you still have not changed, they may have faded for a while out of my sight, but they are back- and I am happy they are. I am once again wearing the ring, and it means so much to me now that I do. I don't know how you feel about me, but if I guess from my heart, I know you love me still. I just wish I could see you smile.
From the moment I met you, I knew deep down that something good would come of it. I was right. Even with all the things that your dad has taken away from you, and us... he still has failed. Even with all the things he tried to take away from me or that he may take in the future, I still love, and am in love, with you; and THAT is something he can NEVER take away from me.
tears fall, reminiscing of us together
I Love you.