[Series] Thin Line; 05 Epilogue
Title: Thin Line
Author: b_sim
Characters/Pairings: GACKT/Hyde (Hideto)
Rating: NC-17
Genre: AU, general, gore
Summary: When the two ninja, Gackt from the Koga and Hideto from the Takeda, fought over who would kill the target, neither of them knew what they were getting themselves into.
Notes: Please note the change of rating. :B
Disclaimer: Do not own anyone.
Their sweat clung to each others’ bodies, binding them together as well. Soft pants and moans filled the air, bringing along with them a certain air of sensuality. Calloused hands gripped the pillow tight, Hideto’s feminine face half-buried in it. His eyes were closed and narrowed, mouth open as Gackt’s name escaped his lips in the form of a groan. His hips were burning from where Gackt was gripping him tightly, thrusting into him hard but slow. The taller ninja was leaning over his back, his breath brushing over the back of Hideto’s ear.
“Harder,” Hideto pleaded, voice hoarse and similar to a growl. Gods, he was already so close to the edge. He felt as if he was standing at the top of a waterfall, about to dive in. His toned abdomen convulsed as he tried to regulate his breathing, strong legs and Gackt’s hands the only thing keeping him from falling down to the bed. He cried out again when Gackt hit that delicious spot in him. “Fuck, Gackt…”
Gackt merely smiled, breathless himself. He closed his eyes and buried his nose into Hideto’s hair, moaning and then slamming into his lover again. Hideto’s walls were so hot, gripping him so tightly. No oiran could ever feel like this. No oiran could ever make him feel like this. He felt so close and so utterly connected to the man beneath him. Buried so deep within him, Gackt could, very tangibly, feel Hideto in every aspect of their five senses. Whatever Hideto felt, he felt. And he felt as if he was on fire, as if the room was an inferno that refused to let up.
Their bodies, slick with sweat and pre-cum, only made them share more body heat but it was such an addicting feeling that neither could pull themselves away. And when their eyes closed, they were brought to a state of euphoria. Whatever they felt was magnified - Hideto could feel Gackt’s length in him, thick and hard, plunging into him deeply. It drove him mad. Gackt could feel even the slightest twitch or clench in Hideto’s muscles and the heat set him ablaze. This wasn’t just sex and they both knew that. Sex was what they had had with oiran in the past. It didn’t feel like this. They knew this was different.
“Hideto…” Gackt panted softly into the man’s ear. Hideto felt sparks run through him and down to his fingertips as he heard his name being called in such a manner. Gackt’s voice was clear and loud, right next to his ear, and it turned him on so bad. Gackt moaned again, the sound so sensual and husky that Hideto believed he could come right there and then if Gackt kept that up. “God, Hideto…”
Their bodies moved together. Whenever Hideto arched his back in pleasure, Gackt’s body followed him and vice versa. They just subconsciously refused to part. When Gackt started to thrust faster into the smaller man, Hideto kept up with him as well, cries increasing in both volume and quantity. Gackt continued to push into Hideto repeatedly, removing one hand from Hideto’s waist and then trailing it between his legs and to his need. When Hideto felt Gackt’s fingers curling around his length, Hideto cursed softly and screwed his eyes shut - Gackt pumping him brought unbelievable pleasure that pushed him even closer to the edge of the cliff.
Then Gackt squeezed and Hideto jumped down the waterfall, hoarse cry tearing itself from his throat as he came hard, white painting Gackt’s hand and the bed they were on. He pushed back against Gackt as waves of relief and bliss washed over him again and again. He clenched his muscles tight and the new sensation brought Gackt to his completion as well as he released his load into Hideto’s body with a soft cry of Hideto’s name. The feeling of his lover coming within him made the smaller ninja grip the pillow even tighter, choked cry getting caught in his throat.
Gackt continued to thrust into Hideto slowly, riding out their orgasm before he eventually went limp. He remained where he was behind and over Hideto, wrapping one arm around Hideto’s waist to keep him there as well. Gackt pressed his lips to Hideto’s shoulder before nuzzling him affectionately. Hideto turned to look over his shoulder and at the other man, tired, sated grin planted on his lips. He turned over a bit more to press their lips together.
“Love you…”
Gackt’s smile widened as he his heart warmed at hearing those words. He returned them softly before kissing Hideto again.
*****
Two years had passed since that night on the hill. Two years and they regretted nothing.
After the fireworks ended, it was Gackt who leaned over Hideto and then pressed their lips together, hands still grasped together, though in a rather uncomfortable position now that Gackt had shifted his position. Unsurprisingly, Hideto kissed back, having already expected it. And Gackt would never have expected someone as rowdy as Hideto to go so slow, enjoying the chastity and sweetness. Gackt didn’t complain - he enjoyed it too. Even though he had kissed oiran before, it had never felt like this. He could not only hear Hideto’s heartbeat but feel it too. It was if they were fighting again, only they weren’t.
They both broke the kiss at the same time, eyes cracking open to stare at one another. There weren’t any questions in either of their eyes. They already understood that they both needed this, both wanted this. But there was something in the back of their minds, making its way forward. They didn’t want to acknowledge it but had to. This wasn’t something they could ignore easily. Their lives were on the line.
The sadness showed in Hideto’s eyes first. After a few seconds of staring at it, it then showed in Gackt’s eyes as well.
“I really hate being a ninja right now,” Hideto muttered softly.
“That makes the two of us,” Gackt replied, not moving from his place above the smaller man.
It was a rule that neither of them, and most of their fellow ninja as well, they were sure, didn’t quite understand. Why couldn’t a ninja have a lover? A partner to spend the rest of their lives with? Perhaps they were worried about clan secrets being leaked. If that was the reason, Hideto thought it was stupid. Gackt found it reasonable but it didn’t mean he liked it any better. And besides, they were both ninja anyway. From different clans with different secrets, sure, but they both understood the gravity of revealing such things. They both could keep quiet.
But they knew it was impossible. Their clan elders wouldn’t listen. And Hideto and Gackt were both men. It wasn’t something so easily accepted. And, though that had never been a problem for Hideto, but he wasn’t about to risk Gackt’s life over this.
Conflicted and torn, Gackt decided that it’d be best if he left now. It would only get increasingly difficult for them both if they stayed like this longer. Smiling sadly and apologetically at the man who he believed could ever only be his friend and rival, he slowly started to pull away but not really wanting to. It was no surprise that Hideto’s hands, one clenching Gackt’s kimono and the other tightening its hold on Gackt’s hand, could keep him there so easily.
Hell, he wasn’t going to risk Gackt’s life but that didn’t mean he was going to give up on this either. Rather, he couldn’t give up on this.
“We can figure something out, fucker,” Hideto mumbled. “I don’t want to have to give in to the stupid code.”
Gackt stared at the smaller man, weighing his options. He didn’t know what it was he felt for Hideto - love or some other stupid emotion - but he knew that he was happy with the guy. He had been forced to give up happiness so many times in his life because of stupid laws and rules. Hideto had made him break out of that and now, he was retreating back into it again?
No. The clan wasn’t going to take anything else from him anymore. It was his life and he was going to live it the way he wanted to.
Unsure and uncertain still, Gackt pushed those thoughts away and just leaned down to kiss the other ninja once more, letting that be his silent agreement.
*****
Hideto remained in bed, refusing to move like the lazy ass that he was. He was content just laying there and watching Gackt get dressed.
“Has anyone told you that you have a great ass?” Hideto asked, wrapping both arms around the pillow as he stared at Gackt’s bare buttocks. The taller ninja looked over, amused. He pulled on his underwear and then his pants, covering the ‘great ass’. Hideto chuckled tiredly before reaching a hand out towards his lover who took it and then allowed himself to be pulled closer. “No, really, I could look at it all day.”
“You keep talking like that and I’ll start to think my body’s the only thing you like about our relationship,” Gackt warned with a teasing smile.
Hideto snorted inelegantly before draping one arm across Gackt’s shoulder as the taller man knelt down next to the bed. He let Gackt’s comment slide, pressing their lips together again. It held a tang of sadness, both of them knowing that they wouldn’t be able to do this for a few weeks. And even then, they would have to be careful and secretive and they had to lie to get around. This time, they pretended to be travellers looking for an inn. They both hated the secrecy but they knew it was something they would have to put up with in order to do this.
They still had missions to accomplish and still had to pledge their lives to their clans. They had no choice but to be placed second in each others’ lives. They had to put up with only being able to see each other every fortnight or so, sometimes longer. The longest was when Gackt had had to travel overseas for a a mission, hitching a ride on a ship to somewhere that Hideto couldn’t be bothered with. Gackt had been gone for almost three months. On the night they had met up after Gackt’s return, Hideto had learned that his lover had fantastic stamina[1].
That wasn’t to say that every single one of their meetings involved sex. Sure, it was a bonus, but it wasn’t what had made them start to care about each other in the first place. They preferred to simply spend time together talking, sometimes fighting (they still enjoyed battling against each other simply for the fact that they liked the adrenaline that pumped through them when they did) or heading out to town for a date. It was a strange thought for both of them - dating. There was, of course, always the fear of getting caught but, with Gackt guiding Hideto, they managed to be almost invisible.
It wasn’t easy. It couldn’t be, not with their lives being what they were. They had no right to complain, though, since they had known this from the very start when they had accepted their fates as ninja.
This, Hideto thought as Gackt kissed his neck, especially affectionate in the morning. Was the closest they would ever get to being a real couple. They would spend a night together once every few weeks or so. It wasn’t perfect. It wasn’t ideal and sure as hell wasn’t normal, but it was what they had. This was as good as it was ever going to get and he wasn’t going to take it for granted.
It was hard to think that they had ever hated each other before. It was hard to think that they had enjoyed tormenting each other so much in the past. Hideto remembered the nights and days he spent obsessing over Gackt and wondering how best to kill his target to get under the taller ninja’s skin. Gackt remembered cursing and swearing at Hideto constantly, sometimes hoping he would fail his infiltration missions. Neither of them were sure when, but they slowly started to become a constant in each others’ lives, a part of each other. It slowly started to become painful to think of the other gone.
Gradually, they moved on from thinking about killing each other, to wanting to beat the other to simply thinking about the other. Subconsciously, they started wanting to protect one another to make sure they didn’t leave. And then, slowly but surely, they started to care about one another more than they probably should as rivals. Emotions were funny things, both mused. From hate, one could start to love.
Then again, both thought as Hideto pulled Gackt back into bed with an impish grin. There’s only a very thin line between love and hate.
Notes: Okay, so this fic didn’t turn out completely the way I envisioned it to so I’m gonna try to make up for it with Truth In A Lie instead. :P Still, I hope you guys enjoyed it at least a little and I’ll definitely try to improve.
Anyway, just one question - who was your favourite ninja in this fic? Suave, cool and collected Gackt? Or wild, rebellious and badass Hideto?
[1] Lol, eight hours.
Author: b_sim
Characters/Pairings: GACKT/Hyde (Hideto)
Rating: NC-17
Genre: AU, general, gore
Summary: When the two ninja, Gackt from the Koga and Hideto from the Takeda, fought over who would kill the target, neither of them knew what they were getting themselves into.
Notes: Please note the change of rating. :B
Disclaimer: Do not own anyone.
Their sweat clung to each others’ bodies, binding them together as well. Soft pants and moans filled the air, bringing along with them a certain air of sensuality. Calloused hands gripped the pillow tight, Hideto’s feminine face half-buried in it. His eyes were closed and narrowed, mouth open as Gackt’s name escaped his lips in the form of a groan. His hips were burning from where Gackt was gripping him tightly, thrusting into him hard but slow. The taller ninja was leaning over his back, his breath brushing over the back of Hideto’s ear.
“Harder,” Hideto pleaded, voice hoarse and similar to a growl. Gods, he was already so close to the edge. He felt as if he was standing at the top of a waterfall, about to dive in. His toned abdomen convulsed as he tried to regulate his breathing, strong legs and Gackt’s hands the only thing keeping him from falling down to the bed. He cried out again when Gackt hit that delicious spot in him. “Fuck, Gackt…”
Gackt merely smiled, breathless himself. He closed his eyes and buried his nose into Hideto’s hair, moaning and then slamming into his lover again. Hideto’s walls were so hot, gripping him so tightly. No oiran could ever feel like this. No oiran could ever make him feel like this. He felt so close and so utterly connected to the man beneath him. Buried so deep within him, Gackt could, very tangibly, feel Hideto in every aspect of their five senses. Whatever Hideto felt, he felt. And he felt as if he was on fire, as if the room was an inferno that refused to let up.
Their bodies, slick with sweat and pre-cum, only made them share more body heat but it was such an addicting feeling that neither could pull themselves away. And when their eyes closed, they were brought to a state of euphoria. Whatever they felt was magnified - Hideto could feel Gackt’s length in him, thick and hard, plunging into him deeply. It drove him mad. Gackt could feel even the slightest twitch or clench in Hideto’s muscles and the heat set him ablaze. This wasn’t just sex and they both knew that. Sex was what they had had with oiran in the past. It didn’t feel like this. They knew this was different.
“Hideto…” Gackt panted softly into the man’s ear. Hideto felt sparks run through him and down to his fingertips as he heard his name being called in such a manner. Gackt’s voice was clear and loud, right next to his ear, and it turned him on so bad. Gackt moaned again, the sound so sensual and husky that Hideto believed he could come right there and then if Gackt kept that up. “God, Hideto…”
Their bodies moved together. Whenever Hideto arched his back in pleasure, Gackt’s body followed him and vice versa. They just subconsciously refused to part. When Gackt started to thrust faster into the smaller man, Hideto kept up with him as well, cries increasing in both volume and quantity. Gackt continued to push into Hideto repeatedly, removing one hand from Hideto’s waist and then trailing it between his legs and to his need. When Hideto felt Gackt’s fingers curling around his length, Hideto cursed softly and screwed his eyes shut - Gackt pumping him brought unbelievable pleasure that pushed him even closer to the edge of the cliff.
Then Gackt squeezed and Hideto jumped down the waterfall, hoarse cry tearing itself from his throat as he came hard, white painting Gackt’s hand and the bed they were on. He pushed back against Gackt as waves of relief and bliss washed over him again and again. He clenched his muscles tight and the new sensation brought Gackt to his completion as well as he released his load into Hideto’s body with a soft cry of Hideto’s name. The feeling of his lover coming within him made the smaller ninja grip the pillow even tighter, choked cry getting caught in his throat.
Gackt continued to thrust into Hideto slowly, riding out their orgasm before he eventually went limp. He remained where he was behind and over Hideto, wrapping one arm around Hideto’s waist to keep him there as well. Gackt pressed his lips to Hideto’s shoulder before nuzzling him affectionately. Hideto turned to look over his shoulder and at the other man, tired, sated grin planted on his lips. He turned over a bit more to press their lips together.
“Love you…”
Gackt’s smile widened as he his heart warmed at hearing those words. He returned them softly before kissing Hideto again.
*****
Two years had passed since that night on the hill. Two years and they regretted nothing.
After the fireworks ended, it was Gackt who leaned over Hideto and then pressed their lips together, hands still grasped together, though in a rather uncomfortable position now that Gackt had shifted his position. Unsurprisingly, Hideto kissed back, having already expected it. And Gackt would never have expected someone as rowdy as Hideto to go so slow, enjoying the chastity and sweetness. Gackt didn’t complain - he enjoyed it too. Even though he had kissed oiran before, it had never felt like this. He could not only hear Hideto’s heartbeat but feel it too. It was if they were fighting again, only they weren’t.
They both broke the kiss at the same time, eyes cracking open to stare at one another. There weren’t any questions in either of their eyes. They already understood that they both needed this, both wanted this. But there was something in the back of their minds, making its way forward. They didn’t want to acknowledge it but had to. This wasn’t something they could ignore easily. Their lives were on the line.
The sadness showed in Hideto’s eyes first. After a few seconds of staring at it, it then showed in Gackt’s eyes as well.
“I really hate being a ninja right now,” Hideto muttered softly.
“That makes the two of us,” Gackt replied, not moving from his place above the smaller man.
It was a rule that neither of them, and most of their fellow ninja as well, they were sure, didn’t quite understand. Why couldn’t a ninja have a lover? A partner to spend the rest of their lives with? Perhaps they were worried about clan secrets being leaked. If that was the reason, Hideto thought it was stupid. Gackt found it reasonable but it didn’t mean he liked it any better. And besides, they were both ninja anyway. From different clans with different secrets, sure, but they both understood the gravity of revealing such things. They both could keep quiet.
But they knew it was impossible. Their clan elders wouldn’t listen. And Hideto and Gackt were both men. It wasn’t something so easily accepted. And, though that had never been a problem for Hideto, but he wasn’t about to risk Gackt’s life over this.
Conflicted and torn, Gackt decided that it’d be best if he left now. It would only get increasingly difficult for them both if they stayed like this longer. Smiling sadly and apologetically at the man who he believed could ever only be his friend and rival, he slowly started to pull away but not really wanting to. It was no surprise that Hideto’s hands, one clenching Gackt’s kimono and the other tightening its hold on Gackt’s hand, could keep him there so easily.
Hell, he wasn’t going to risk Gackt’s life but that didn’t mean he was going to give up on this either. Rather, he couldn’t give up on this.
“We can figure something out, fucker,” Hideto mumbled. “I don’t want to have to give in to the stupid code.”
Gackt stared at the smaller man, weighing his options. He didn’t know what it was he felt for Hideto - love or some other stupid emotion - but he knew that he was happy with the guy. He had been forced to give up happiness so many times in his life because of stupid laws and rules. Hideto had made him break out of that and now, he was retreating back into it again?
No. The clan wasn’t going to take anything else from him anymore. It was his life and he was going to live it the way he wanted to.
Unsure and uncertain still, Gackt pushed those thoughts away and just leaned down to kiss the other ninja once more, letting that be his silent agreement.
*****
Hideto remained in bed, refusing to move like the lazy ass that he was. He was content just laying there and watching Gackt get dressed.
“Has anyone told you that you have a great ass?” Hideto asked, wrapping both arms around the pillow as he stared at Gackt’s bare buttocks. The taller ninja looked over, amused. He pulled on his underwear and then his pants, covering the ‘great ass’. Hideto chuckled tiredly before reaching a hand out towards his lover who took it and then allowed himself to be pulled closer. “No, really, I could look at it all day.”
“You keep talking like that and I’ll start to think my body’s the only thing you like about our relationship,” Gackt warned with a teasing smile.
Hideto snorted inelegantly before draping one arm across Gackt’s shoulder as the taller man knelt down next to the bed. He let Gackt’s comment slide, pressing their lips together again. It held a tang of sadness, both of them knowing that they wouldn’t be able to do this for a few weeks. And even then, they would have to be careful and secretive and they had to lie to get around. This time, they pretended to be travellers looking for an inn. They both hated the secrecy but they knew it was something they would have to put up with in order to do this.
They still had missions to accomplish and still had to pledge their lives to their clans. They had no choice but to be placed second in each others’ lives. They had to put up with only being able to see each other every fortnight or so, sometimes longer. The longest was when Gackt had had to travel overseas for a a mission, hitching a ride on a ship to somewhere that Hideto couldn’t be bothered with. Gackt had been gone for almost three months. On the night they had met up after Gackt’s return, Hideto had learned that his lover had fantastic stamina[1].
That wasn’t to say that every single one of their meetings involved sex. Sure, it was a bonus, but it wasn’t what had made them start to care about each other in the first place. They preferred to simply spend time together talking, sometimes fighting (they still enjoyed battling against each other simply for the fact that they liked the adrenaline that pumped through them when they did) or heading out to town for a date. It was a strange thought for both of them - dating. There was, of course, always the fear of getting caught but, with Gackt guiding Hideto, they managed to be almost invisible.
It wasn’t easy. It couldn’t be, not with their lives being what they were. They had no right to complain, though, since they had known this from the very start when they had accepted their fates as ninja.
This, Hideto thought as Gackt kissed his neck, especially affectionate in the morning. Was the closest they would ever get to being a real couple. They would spend a night together once every few weeks or so. It wasn’t perfect. It wasn’t ideal and sure as hell wasn’t normal, but it was what they had. This was as good as it was ever going to get and he wasn’t going to take it for granted.
It was hard to think that they had ever hated each other before. It was hard to think that they had enjoyed tormenting each other so much in the past. Hideto remembered the nights and days he spent obsessing over Gackt and wondering how best to kill his target to get under the taller ninja’s skin. Gackt remembered cursing and swearing at Hideto constantly, sometimes hoping he would fail his infiltration missions. Neither of them were sure when, but they slowly started to become a constant in each others’ lives, a part of each other. It slowly started to become painful to think of the other gone.
Gradually, they moved on from thinking about killing each other, to wanting to beat the other to simply thinking about the other. Subconsciously, they started wanting to protect one another to make sure they didn’t leave. And then, slowly but surely, they started to care about one another more than they probably should as rivals. Emotions were funny things, both mused. From hate, one could start to love.
Then again, both thought as Hideto pulled Gackt back into bed with an impish grin. There’s only a very thin line between love and hate.
Notes: Okay, so this fic didn’t turn out completely the way I envisioned it to so I’m gonna try to make up for it with Truth In A Lie instead. :P Still, I hope you guys enjoyed it at least a little and I’ll definitely try to improve.
Anyway, just one question - who was your favourite ninja in this fic? Suave, cool and collected Gackt? Or wild, rebellious and badass Hideto?
[1] Lol, eight hours.