no time to slow
a little while ago, i heard one of my coworkers talking about her crush on another coworker, her anxiety about not being his type and whether he could possibly have feelings for her. i listened to her and thought to myself "god, i so do not miss that." crushes usually involve maybe a week or two of giddiness at finding someone you're interested in, and the rest is just endless pining and angst. i found myself looking back on some of the crushes i had in college and high school today - so much wasted energy, i don't know how my brain didn't explode. not that i'm incapable of it now, in fact i do have a sort of semi-crush on a coworker. wouldn't even call it a crush really, just a vague smirking intrigue that amuses me more than anything. it'd be kind of funny if anything happened there. a good story at least. but i have no interest in wistfully following someone with my eyes or painting pictures of picket fences in my head. i'm having a good time the way things are.
my birthday was last week and with it came october and some cool weather. we ate out at bertucci's and my cake was shaped shaped like a reese's peanut butter cup.
it was very sweet, but i think i prefer the more traditional kind of ice cream cake. but no matter, plenty of birthdays coming up. grandma paquita's 90th is nov 2, and mom, her brother and grandma's friend aida have been trying to put together a party that won't frighten her. so far they're not succeeding, because the guest count at the moment is rather overwhelming. grandma doesn't fair well with surprises, but we can't tell her about the party or she'll just make up some excuse to not go at the last minute. should be an interesting day in any case.
mom and dad bought me a membership to planet fitness as my birthday present. i've been so focused on my strong desire to burn calories and make some muscle, that i temporarily forgot about my anxiety about gyms and exercise equipment. and now its giving me a headache. i went there today to scope the place out and the woman giving me the tour wasn't really that informative. at least the guy who showed me around at the edge was good looking. i guess i'll get over it somehow because i badly want to get into shape.
i watched wild at heart last night. way better than i expected it to be, and fairly straight forward for a lynch film. nonetheless, i've requested my old textbook from my comparative directors class from the library (i'm still mad at myself for selling that book back) so i can get a more solid idea of what the hell was going on. but just watching the movie and commentary reminded me of the principles david lynch runs on, and its funny that its so similar to a conversation i've been having on okcupid. the whole concept of letting go of the ego, of our structures. the conversation started with island, and now she's told me that there are people who use the whole mutual adoption club concept. it kind of blew my mind that there are communities here that act on those principles, i thought it would always just be a dream i would have.
my birthday was last week and with it came october and some cool weather. we ate out at bertucci's and my cake was shaped shaped like a reese's peanut butter cup.
it was very sweet, but i think i prefer the more traditional kind of ice cream cake. but no matter, plenty of birthdays coming up. grandma paquita's 90th is nov 2, and mom, her brother and grandma's friend aida have been trying to put together a party that won't frighten her. so far they're not succeeding, because the guest count at the moment is rather overwhelming. grandma doesn't fair well with surprises, but we can't tell her about the party or she'll just make up some excuse to not go at the last minute. should be an interesting day in any case.
mom and dad bought me a membership to planet fitness as my birthday present. i've been so focused on my strong desire to burn calories and make some muscle, that i temporarily forgot about my anxiety about gyms and exercise equipment. and now its giving me a headache. i went there today to scope the place out and the woman giving me the tour wasn't really that informative. at least the guy who showed me around at the edge was good looking. i guess i'll get over it somehow because i badly want to get into shape.
i watched wild at heart last night. way better than i expected it to be, and fairly straight forward for a lynch film. nonetheless, i've requested my old textbook from my comparative directors class from the library (i'm still mad at myself for selling that book back) so i can get a more solid idea of what the hell was going on. but just watching the movie and commentary reminded me of the principles david lynch runs on, and its funny that its so similar to a conversation i've been having on okcupid. the whole concept of letting go of the ego, of our structures. the conversation started with island, and now she's told me that there are people who use the whole mutual adoption club concept. it kind of blew my mind that there are communities here that act on those principles, i thought it would always just be a dream i would have.