with the best of intentions you tried to give an ocean direction
ugh. i guess its gotta come in waves, sometimes little ones, sometimes big ones. most of the time things are good, i'm able to truck along, doing my own thing and not be bothered. but then every couple of weeks for a day or two i have to remember how much everything sucks. the economy sucks, the job market sucks, i haven't gotten a single call back from a job that i've applied for in the 5 months since i've graduated, and i live a listless, unproductive, unstimulated life. even my hair sucks, no matter what i do to it, it seems as droopy as my mood. and now apparently my fingertips are falling off - i don't why, specifically, but most likely due to a combination of using hydrocortisone every day, a loofah sponge, and washing the dishes a lot (a long with a multitude of other factors, no doubt) the skin on the pads of my fingers is thinning. i noticed a couple months ago that they had that crinkly, perpetually pruney look, but i didn't realize what that meant. and then yesterday when i went to apply some hair removal cream with my right index finger, it actually, finally, hit raw flesh. its funny how when one little, but important, spot on your body starts aching, everything else feels a whole lot worse. now i'm overly aware of the sensitivity of my fingertips and i don't want to touch anything even vaguely rough.
so i guess that's part of what is so nice about the vampire fantasy. all those little human worries suddenly vanish and you can do whatever you want, and if you don't know what you want to do your overprotective vampire boyfriend will decide for you.
i finished new moon last night. its a very different, much better book than twilight, though the ending still had the same disappointing effect. i guess stephenie meyer is not very good at ending stories, but i can't really knock her for that, not many writers can do it right either. but, yes, i actually enjoyed new moon quite a bit, the writing got better (there were a few gaffs, of course, but they weren't nearly as noticeable), and the characters got a tad bit richer - and when i say characters, i mean jacob, really. i feel bad for all the bella/jacob shippers out there, because obviously he's doomed to be the paris of the story, the goofy, charming best friend who gets shrugged off for the jock, but as it turns he is probably the most fleshed-out, multi-dimensional character in the story. i like seeing relationships that make the main character feel good, that are based on friendship - its why i was such a big harry/luna shipper, because they just genuinely liked each other sans the angst (and they would have adorable, mini-dumbledore babies). i liked the werewolves in general really, and that along with bella and jacob's interaction is what fueled my enjoyment for most of the book. sure, the werewolves are almost as self-deprecating as the vampires, but there's a more grounded sense of family with them. that and their fight scenes are going to look great in the movie. so while i was pretty glued to new moon and it gave me an adrenaline rush that made me want to do exercise at 10:30 at night, i had an itching suspicion that as soon as edward came back into the picture i would get bored again. and i did. meyer seems to write bella's pain over losing edward much better than her actual love for edward. but besides alice's grand theft auto, the main thing i could say i enjoyed about the vampire segment of the book was aro. omg. that's gonna be so much fun to watch in theaters. i am overall looking forward to this movie so much, that the prospect of twilight in november is almost irrelevant.
granted, new moon still had many of the same problems as twilight - it was still lacking a proper story structure, and even though the race through volterra was an exciting rising action, there was hardly anything of a climax. it was just really a device to introduce new characters, and provide some foreshadowing for the later books, but it seems that, like some reviews of breaking dawn have speculated, meyer is afraid to hurt her characters too much. and if she does manage to hurt them some, such as what bella went through (and i guess, edward too), they don't change and evolve from it, which is the whole point of hurting your characters (besides entertaining the audience, of course). but i guess i shouldn't be demanding so much of a series like this - it is all about the escapist fantasy after all. what i really need to do is to get writing myself.
so i guess that's part of what is so nice about the vampire fantasy. all those little human worries suddenly vanish and you can do whatever you want, and if you don't know what you want to do your overprotective vampire boyfriend will decide for you.
i finished new moon last night. its a very different, much better book than twilight, though the ending still had the same disappointing effect. i guess stephenie meyer is not very good at ending stories, but i can't really knock her for that, not many writers can do it right either. but, yes, i actually enjoyed new moon quite a bit, the writing got better (there were a few gaffs, of course, but they weren't nearly as noticeable), and the characters got a tad bit richer - and when i say characters, i mean jacob, really. i feel bad for all the bella/jacob shippers out there, because obviously he's doomed to be the paris of the story, the goofy, charming best friend who gets shrugged off for the jock, but as it turns he is probably the most fleshed-out, multi-dimensional character in the story. i like seeing relationships that make the main character feel good, that are based on friendship - its why i was such a big harry/luna shipper, because they just genuinely liked each other sans the angst (and they would have adorable, mini-dumbledore babies). i liked the werewolves in general really, and that along with bella and jacob's interaction is what fueled my enjoyment for most of the book. sure, the werewolves are almost as self-deprecating as the vampires, but there's a more grounded sense of family with them. that and their fight scenes are going to look great in the movie. so while i was pretty glued to new moon and it gave me an adrenaline rush that made me want to do exercise at 10:30 at night, i had an itching suspicion that as soon as edward came back into the picture i would get bored again. and i did. meyer seems to write bella's pain over losing edward much better than her actual love for edward. but besides alice's grand theft auto, the main thing i could say i enjoyed about the vampire segment of the book was aro. omg. that's gonna be so much fun to watch in theaters. i am overall looking forward to this movie so much, that the prospect of twilight in november is almost irrelevant.
granted, new moon still had many of the same problems as twilight - it was still lacking a proper story structure, and even though the race through volterra was an exciting rising action, there was hardly anything of a climax. it was just really a device to introduce new characters, and provide some foreshadowing for the later books, but it seems that, like some reviews of breaking dawn have speculated, meyer is afraid to hurt her characters too much. and if she does manage to hurt them some, such as what bella went through (and i guess, edward too), they don't change and evolve from it, which is the whole point of hurting your characters (besides entertaining the audience, of course). but i guess i shouldn't be demanding so much of a series like this - it is all about the escapist fantasy after all. what i really need to do is to get writing myself.